sanriokitty

My 2009

2010-01-26T21:11:00.004+08:00

Hmmm..well,my 2009 wasn't as bad as I thought. =p
I remembered the start of 09,i was still working.Until early feb den i quit.Not feeling sad thou.hahas

Cny 09 was the first time i went to bai nian with my bf to his paternal and maternal grandma house.He came to my house too.

I slacked for a month plus before i started studying again.On march 19 was my first day in sch,i was very motivated to study during the first few months.After which,i begin to slack after i was down with chicken pox during end june, Mc 2weeks till mid july.Hais,i started going out late for school on purpose as all my classmates were never early.Haas,this is not the real reason of course. Actually is my lecturer who didn't really teach after classmates keep coming to class off and on. maybe he thought that all of us don't wanna study already.The fact is there is still a minority of students who still wanna learn.That's me,abit bhb but its true lahx.I'm disappointed in him an as time pass i hate him more.LOLS.

My course end officially on Dec 12. I thought i would diligently find a job, i didn't, I was anticipating for all the upcoming events like christmas eve, new year.hahas..maybe i don't have the mood to work now because i think that what I have studied has nothing to do with my future job and some more the place I studied at is not recognized.F*** shit! Wasting my dad money and I need to work hard to pay him back.Raarr~~~

My happier time in 09 was with bf.He managed to celebrate all the events with me! =DDD
etc,-birthdays,valentine's day, anniversary,cny,christmas, new year

=)=)

2009-09-04T10:53:00.001+08:00

I am happy wif my life now..heex...
bf tries to make mi happy everytime..
i noe i'm too spoiled...but he gave in all e time..
make mi feel so touched..

hahas..sept alredi..less den 4 mths i wil hav to find a job..oh no..
assignments due in oct..i'm stil nt doin it..
wat's wrong wif mi?ahhhh..

i feel lyk goin oversea..blahhhhh...
hahas..

nth to write le..lols..
its rainin now.. goin bck to bed =D

Random~ =)

2009-08-13T23:14:00.005+08:00

i'm bck to bloggin..but i doubt tt i will be consistent..LOLS

okie..dere's so much tinks to type it out..
hahas..i lyk to conclude everytink..
wil try to make it a long post..ahhas..

my life is so boring..ahhas..
bf is in e army..
i'm used to it..hehex..anw he got an office hour type of job..
so well..bck to normal life again..lols..

for my life now..
studyin private for almost 6mths le..
full time..mon-fri
tts e excuse of nt workin..
hahas.gonna resume to workin life soon..
probably end of e yr..
ahhhh..i dun wanna face reality..
hahas.i don't lyk to work..who lyks anw? haax

i wanna go on a holdiay..must save alot of money..
plenty of places i wanna go..
hehex..i got my target..

maybe i sld hav a planner for myself..
will i follow to it, tt's a qns..LOL

been slackin all these while..
assignments done in parts..dun hav e mood to concentrate..gagaga

have nt been to a shoppin spree for 6mths le..hahas.
how i survive sia..its nt e usual mi..
i guess without money..one wld noe how to tink..

so many things to do yet so little time..

T.T

('('o^)')..('',)

=

2009-08-13T23:14:00.001+08:00

:):)

2009-06-18T18:41:00.003+08:00

~halo peeps

hahas..okie..i noe veri random..
goin to be one yr again since i last blogged..

hmmm..been doin fine tis first half of yr..i'm studyin now..
ain't tt a gd tink?heex..

well..after i start sch..my way of tinkin have changed..
maybe to a certain extent..hahas..

stil happily attached to my bf~hahas..

i'm busy everyday..i love my life now..
study in e mornin..slack in e afternoon..weekends wif bf..hehex..

must try to find part time job le..
no income = no shoppin..gagaaga

i wanna go on a holdiday..hahas..
to a nice place where i can relax..lols

tts all for now..=p..

wil try to update more.. =)

K|tTy^_^

:)

2008-09-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

Finally updated my blog after one year plus..LOLS..

well..this one whole yr i hav been workin..convert to part-timer on may this year.
coming up next wil be my O levels..i'm retaking for e second time..but i have no confidence tis year..hais..
if i dont pass again,i dunno wat wil happen to mi..

other then work..yup..i'm attached too..tgt wif him for ard 10 mths le..time flies..heex..

veri long nvr update blog le..dunno wat to write..ha..
hmmm..ever since someone deleted his blog..i have no news of him at all..as i deleted all his msn n friendster le..hais..sometimes i do tink of him..people pass by..i tot tt somewhere someone is him..no doubt tt my heart stil hurts after lyk 2yrs..dunno y lahx..

shall continue nxt time..tata~

2007-08-24T01:40:00.000+08:00

boohoo~

one mth just pass like this...quite meaningless.LOLS.

talk abt todae..
its a bad day for mi.
some work left undone..actually i rmb,just tt i dun lyk to call ppl do tinks.
so everytink is nt done.
i accidentally cut my finger again..i'm so careless..
even when i iron clothes oso can hurt myself..
i fell down when i was walkin home.suay rt..
sTuPid shoe @-#

hais..workin n workin..til i bcum so blur.. i keep forgetting tinks now and then..@_@

so long nvr c someone le..
everytime so busy, make mi no mood to ask him out`T.T

i dunno wat i'm tinkin actually..
two choices for mi..waiting or accepting..
but wats e use of accepting when one dun hav e feelings for him/her ?

hmmmmm...hope i wil be free on sept 8th..hahas..

endin here..nites:)

emo?

2007-07-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

hav been thinkin alot these few days..hahas..
i'm easily influence by ppl..dun make my decision sways..ahhh`

___studies___
who can help me find info of some private sch..
or bmc..
LOLs..i always wanted to study lahx..who sae i don't want.
coz everytime gt some probs come out..den i cant do wat i planned`

__work__
hahas..i'm so emotional when workin..when customer irritates mi i get fed up and nearly cried..its nt e first time lorx..i just cant control my temper..LOLs..

i love to gaze ard aimlessly..wahahas..nt alot of cute guys lahx..just lookin for someone who might come down to imm..=p

__frenz___
last met dem was on july 4th..
hahas..i wanna plan a gathering again..
shall we go kbox nxt tym? hehex..
hope it wil be 5 of us again..=D

__family__
dad goin overseas nxt mth..
mum hav an appointment at ttsh on sat..hais.
bro slackin n nt realli studyin hard..tsk tsk
sis oways late for sch..LOLs..
mi~ stil e noisiest in e hse..wakakax`

elaborate enuff? ahhas..k lahx..i'm crappin again..
nth to blog abt.just briefly type wat i tot of..=p

gdnite =)

('('o^)')..(",)

2007-07-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

>.<
hais..one yr jus pass tis way.
i won't be able to forget all these pain.
i hav went thru it and i dun wish to repeat any of tis.

did i grow up after one yr? i doubt so..hais..

i didnt cry ytd..ain't tt a great tink..
=)

time wil nt erase e pain.

ememorieswilbekeptdeepinmyheart.

hmmm

2007-05-27T09:44:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...one mth plus didnt blog le..

nt as busy as u tink i am..but..hahas..i feel lazy to blog somehow.

life as usual..
workin and workin..
when am i goin to study?LOLS..

s'pore sales le..heex..and i just got my pay..wheeee..hahas

i wanna get a new mp3..mine spoilt long time ago..ha

sometimes i wonder why i like to think so much when everythink is over.
maybe cause i always look back..

what i remember is just those heartache and wounds i had.

in fact..i stil don't trust ppl now thou its been a few mths.

don't ask me why because i won't say. [[silent-words]]

moody~

^^

2007-04-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

~Happy birthday

hope tis yr u r happy too..and e rest of e yrs..

istilmissyou.

imafraidjusttotalktoyou.soithinkamsgwillsuffice.

nishizhongzaiwoxinli.

Loves:)

=)

2007-02-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

one mth nvr blog le..

wat have i been doing for this past mth?
i also dunno..hahas

alot of tinks happen..
sad tinks i shall nt sae..

happy tinks??
too least to list out..

pathetic yea?

tts mi`

even thou i have limited frens now..dae r my true frens..tts enough for mi..i'm contented with what i have now..

no point tryin to talk sense to me or whatever it is..

trying hard to be happy..i noe i cant be asking myself everydae whether i'm happy anot.. but tts e fact..
cause i'm always sad`

ppl try to noe mi..to tell u e truth.. i don't need ppl to noe me as i have no interest in making friends. or even trying to understand mi when dae dont really do..
i really hate tt feeling.. so one thing i have to sae..

don't ever try to understand me` cause you won't be able to..

mixed feelings is what i feel now`

no plans no future` despair`

e past gurl~

sobs

2007-01-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

I wanna CRY OUT LOUD`

don't know why i felt so much at the moment,just feel like crying out loud now.
i did cried for the past few days for some reasons which i'm puzzled too` ~_~

maybe i talked to friends and pour out all my inner thoughts and feelings.

some will think it will be a less burden..some will think it will be more stress.

for me..of course is a burden and its stressing me so badly that i couldnt even breathe.
my health did worsen..perhaps i'm thinking too much. i do hope things would become better..

struggling everydae..thou i may look happy on the outside..i'm cryin inside actually.

i dont like the feeling of being asked..all sorts of stupid questions or anything that doesnt concern me.. i really hate it..

getting emo nowadays..

nonetheless..i miss him`

xDDD.. :)

2007-01-15T01:48:00.000+08:00

hahahahahas..kkkkkkk..UPDATE~ LOLS

was workin everyday..practically..wahahs..
tired lahx..u try standin 11hrs per day..c how it feels lorx.
hmmm..all i can sae is tt my job SUCKS.wahahas..so i'm changin to diff section..but under same company..Lame~ wakakax..

BUT I MET NEW FRIENDS~! tts e main point..Lalala~ =)
alot alot of gd frenz dere..hehex..
become my cliques everydae..haahs..

nevertheless..i miss all of you..HUIMIN GABBY WENYA~ :)))

GABBY: i miss u ~hahas..sorrie for forgetin abt e choc tink..coz i was workin tt tym.and den busy mahsx..hahax..thx anw..=) meet up soon..hahas..we shall go shop~ shoppin SPREE when i get my PAY~ wahahahas..xDDDD..

HUIMIN: i miss you too..so long nvr c u..den cca dae..hahas..took so mani pics..thx to gab..lols..

WENYA:last but nt least..i miss u too.hahas..keep in contact..coz i wont be free most of e time..hahas..

workin life is fun..

hmm..gt alot of tinks to write..but too tired nw..hahas..
goin to slp le..nites..

K|tTy..('('o^)')

jan15th..HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD :))

1:54am

@_@

2006-12-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

confused confused confused~~

i'm so dumb..pls dun sae anitink tt wil lead to misunderstanings.

hahas..hmmm..aiya..its complicated anw..
LOL

i shall nt elaborate..

btw. i gt a date for movie..hahahahahhahahahahas

another date by another one..lols..coz tis one is e person ask de..woah~

goin out soon tis comin wk..hahas.lookin forward to..

and my first pay~~ wheee~..xD..but dunno nid to work for 1mth to get it or half mth..coz i wanna quit..LOL..hahahhhahahahahhah..dun ask mi y..

tts all..

todae is a special day~ bleahz

xD)))) :)))

2006-12-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

overjoyed~ ^^ wheeee~

hahas..dunno y suddenly become so happi..
guess someone said sth..lalala~

(",)

^^

2006-12-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

DEC 10TH~

wedding dinner~ hehex..

we went to vivo shop..so fun..we took pics..

i love e cable cars..my wish~ haven fulfiled yet..sigh~

e scenery..i love e sunset..love e clouds..

jus simply love e sky~ ^^

walk to harbourfront tower 2 after tt..to 88 restaurant..wheee~
my cousin gt gf le..sad~ kiddin* hahas..

aunt sae i becum slimer le..soooo damn happi.LOL..

e wedding is soooooooo touching lahx..
i swore to have tt kinda wedding in e future if i can..find e guy who wil giv mi forever happiness..hmmmm...

dinner dunno lyk wat..ate oni abit..went home half dead..stil using com.
n i woke up erly todae..duhhz..=_="..

tata~

2006-12-11T11:37:00.000+08:00

DEC9th..
she came to stay over..
kinda surprise coz its aredy 11plus le den she come..hais..
tot my anticipation wil turn to disappoitment..but..hahas..she shocked mi n di~

after tt play com til 2 plus..we watch korean show..
she fall asleep half way..mi watchin alone..

let her slp on e sofa..where else mi,slpin on e floor..sobs..
bro went to rm slp hours ago..so i hav to acc her.
mornin dad ask mi to go rm slp..wif her oso..

shes e first ger to slp on my bed..AND hes e first guy to slp on my bed..jus diff time..dun sae i tink too much..its jus so happen tt i tot of tt day..hais.nvm..its all over..he dun care abt mi animore..forever n ever..he dun even wish to c mi..sobs..no reply..no ans..

I"M LEFT DAZED~ by him..

???

2006-12-09T01:54:00.000+08:00

Alrite...i shall blog..

since..........ha..lalala~nt goin to sae~

hmmm..okie..alot of tinks happen..simple as that..bleahx~
wanna noe den ask mi..if nt i wont sae anitink..LUffs*

did alot of tinks todae..
i went bladin alone..to toh guan..
fall down thrice..once bitten twice shy..thrice brave? LOL
i'm LAME~
and realli lame.cant walk properly nw..

hais..bruises all over..and i went cycling at night..

y do i do these tinks?
i'm puzzled too..=(

maybe its because i'm feelin lousy..nt realli in a gd mood..
cant be able to express out..as i dun even noe wats e prob is..so..jus let it be..
i noe tinks r goin to be fine=) i BELIEVE~

went to meet 2 frenz todae respectively..lols..gave dem brownies n muffins.
i made myself..smart rt? lalala~ i baked horx..wif a fren oso..hahas.so happi baking all these snacks..

lata in e evenin i went cycling..den gave my fren e "food" lorx..
hahas..n i went home after tt..

i noe i come out its an excuse..said by my mum too.hais..coz she noe i nt so bo liao to blade n cycle in one dae..i realli dun wish to stay at home mahx.so e excuse to exercise is fake de.i jus want to sneak out n be bck home by 9..grounded..as in at nite.LOL

y cant anyone understand how i feel..even all my close ones dunno wat state i am in nw..i may look happy on e outside.but i'm actually seriously in a depression~ who knows...

forget it lahx..dunno is a word i always sae to avoid anytink or misunderstandings..coz i HATE misunderstandings by ppl..hate ACCUSERS too..dun wrongly accuse mi.i wil be so angry tt i can cry for e whole day~ trust mi..

MOODLESS~

end~~~~!!!!

^^

2006-12-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY~^^ =)))) x))))) :)))

hahas..i'm mad~ lalala~

xD

2006-11-28T10:12:00.000+08:00

went to wathch step up ytd..sooooooooooo nice..i wanna watch again..xD=)

alot of tinks happens..wells..cried e whole nite to slp...woke up,swollen eyes..

played audi til noon..til ps asked..hmmm..den we went out lorx..wif yt n mg n ps..heex..its weird thou.havent been goin out wif dem for sooooo long le..i mean e guys..lols..

we eat n play...talk nonsense..alot lahx..lols..so its fun..it realli brightens my dae..

cabbed bck home..dae paid..thx alot..=)

and e movie dae treat us..woah~so gd rt..hehex..

reach home..surprisingly nvr get scolded...ahhas..coz i tiam tiam..lols..

bathe..online awhile..

went to slp~sooooo tired..nw early in e mornin..typin entry..hahas..

k..tts all..
tc..

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2006-11-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

well..havent been updating for days..nt tt busy..but.......hais..jus tt sth happen..
i came to noe sth..whenever i dun wish to noe..i wil noe naturally..i dunno y..coz i dun wish to noe n yet ppl came to tel mi..

i realli tink alot tis few days.

y muz let mi be so confused abt everytink???
WHY?

i aredy learnt to let go..tinks reside again..sobs..=(

e person tt's oways on my mind tis few days..is HIM~ i'm puzzled!

..................

2006-11-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

no words could express my tots..

coz i'm really veri disappointed~

i just wanna be a simple girl~

why you all want me to seems so complicated..
just wats e reason???

=)

2006-11-22T13:46:00.000+08:00

wheeee~ someone sent mi a letter..=) yea..its by post..lalala~
hahas..so happi..

suddenly tinks went bck e same way..i'm glad:)

=(

2006-11-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

hais~

swollen eyes when i woke up..
cant slp well ytd..
cried lyk a fool..dunno y..
head spinnin so hard..i cant take it..so pain..
tink alot ytd..n just noe tt todae is e dae tt..................
sobs..

look at those past photos..remind mi alot of tinks..hais..when can tis ever stop? i wanna noe..~

those tinks i done..i reflect on it..i stil dun tink tt its nt worth it..at least i tried..but failed.~ cnt be blame..juz tt my luck aint tt good..fated!

wats nt mine wont be mine..dere r tink which r nvr meant to be mine n i can nvr get hold of it..

i noe everytink wun go bck to last tym..

but i do hope someday it wil get better..i jus hope~

if only someone noe..if ONLY~ =(

being so pessimistic is nt my fault..its my character..i cant change it as it aredy bcum a part of mi..

Anw..todae is weiming's fren bdae..DILLON: Happy Birthday~

=)

2006-11-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

goin chalet on sat n sun~

goin out on fri...to somewae..=)

thurs meet a frenz :)

todae at home rest..hehex..hmm..alot of tinks lahx..
create a blog in friendster..nth to do mahx..haha..so i nw hav 3 blogs..lalala~
i'm so free...juz be jealous~ (",)..

sms someone..nvr reply mi..hmmmph..y am i always doing e extra tink? i reali wonder..hahas..dunno lahx..sldnt be luffin..but..i dunno how to express..so..juz let it be..

i wanna watch movie..hahas..

i wanna go vivo again..

i wanna go Ministry Of Sound~

deres alot of tinks i wanna do as i cant fulfill it in e past..as someone dun let mi..or some other reasons which r personal..

nw i'm living my life happily..dun ever try to make mi feel down..

i dun waste my time nw..i wil prove to those ppl who look down on mi b4..juz wait n c..u all wil c a diff mi..

even if i dun score well for my Os nw..i can cope on my own..whether i wil be studyin again or workin..its my choice..no one can stop mi..

kitty wil make her decisions herself..she dont need some unrelated de ppl to tell her tinks tt she dun wish to hear ..=)

2006-11-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

haven bbeen updating for days..

as sth happen..

i dun wish to sae..=(
jus tt its all over nw..i'm fine..after a long tym of cryin out my heart..i felt relieve again`

it rained juz lyk 4mths ago..oni he wil noe..
tears in e rain..wat i felt at tt moment..is confusion..realli..
til nw..its stil confusion..dun wanna tink animore as u dun wanna sae it out..n u r tryin hard to avoid mi although u did reply mi..i noe its juz a sense of politeness..i wil understand..i'm nt tt type hu wil misunderstand n misinterpret ever again..trust mi..i wont~

wont u juz give mi a chance to sae wat i really wanted to say deep inside my heart ?
y cant u juz be a little more understandin to mi even though....... juz nid another reason to tok..n i wan e truth..nt e tinks u wanna sae to hurt mi..

feelin so emo nw as todae is.......

fallin apart~ everytink came to e end..

tears left..words unsaid..broken up into pieces..~

=( let mi die...

=(

2006-11-01T12:19:00.000+08:00

i'm so disappointed..u let mi down again n again..
u break my heart endlessly..it just wont stop..
do u ever noe u r hurtin mi ?
those words u said..those tinks u did..
do u ever realise u r hurtin yaself too.by sayin those harsh words to mi..

i noe time wont turn bck..
but i'm stil waitin..stil holdin on..u noe i cant forget u..
y r u askin mi to forget u..

no matter what..tis wun change anitink..
u r stil in my heart for as long as i live~

sponsor~

2006-10-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

Kitty is desperately finding a SPONSOR ~~~!!!!

LOLS..so who's is kind to sponsor some..lols..for e bbq tinks..

hmmm...in trouble le..coz nt enuff budget..n in a case or another..kitty suddenly invited alot of frenx without noticing..she cant reject dem so all will come..
she wil have to tink of a solution or else she wil be dead..lols..luffs*

2006-10-23T11:51:00.000+08:00

My bdae party wil be on 28th oct..its a saturday..so i sincerely hope everyone whom i invited will come..=)...i will be organising a bbq..there will be games and so on..hehex..

hmmm..time is from 12pm to nite..those who came late nvm..its okie..as long as u come..i will be glad..=)

venue: meet at my hse first..i need to carry things to e bbq pit..lols..so sorrie..hahax..

ermx..juz bring yaself along..presents will be gladly appreciated..lalala~bleah~.
hahax..

can bring gf/bf along..hahax..

so i will see you all on sat..(",)..^^

sincerely,
Kitty..

=)

2006-10-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

hahax..hmmm..todae was an hectic day..
first...i went to juying take pract exam..lols..alot of tinks happen..hahas..

after pract..went to west mall meet bobin..give him e bk lorx..
den took 174 to orchard..i was cryin lyk a fool in e bus..dunno wat e hell happen to mi lahx.lols..
reach dere..sianz..cousin sae dun wanna go orchard le..so i cabbed down to bugis..gt one cute gy ask mi to donate money lahx..but i no cash mahx..so sad den..lols..
cabbed down..cousin paid for e cabby fare..thz arx..hahax..
went to shop..so tired lahx..lols..den headed to marina square.walk dere k...its so far..my legs r breakin..

ahhax..reach dere..eat yuki yaki..nice nice..had fun..chat non-stop..play wif e ice cream..take pics..lols..so fun..hahax..lols..take alot of food in e end nvr eat finish..tsk tsk..hahax..

den went to shop..tried on a dress..total costs is 92 bucks..woahh..hahax..hu wanna buy for mi?? ahhax..lalala~

den went to mango.cant change e shirt..so i change it tml lorx..lols..my cousin de..

take mrt home..chatted on e way bck wif my aunt..cousin went off wif her bf..tsk tsk.hahax..

alight at lakeside..changed route le..lakeside..no more chi garden =) deres too much memories at chi garden..dun wish to sae abt it..hais..

walked home..gt those stupid stares from strangers..i hate it alot`

reach home..dad asked y so late..i sae went out wif aunt n cousin..he nth to sae..lalala~ i'm so clever..lols..

crap alot..den use com..bathe after tt..so tired lahx..lols..

was lookin forward to tml..hehex..is actually todae..midnite le..hahax..soooo happi..=) xD..nite nitex...hahax..

2006-10-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

hahax..haven been updating for days..was busy lahx..
lols..
okie..shall fill in..

2 days ago..went to study wif mg..wj..n wx..
at je lib.den study til nite..i'm so hardworkin ..lols..hmmm..den went to eat..a choc waffle..dae treat mi..so gd rt..i didnt noe dae wil buy for mi..hahax..
den study all e way..was realli concentratin..hahax..den went home alone..walk bck frm je..was so tiring..i wil nt walk bck frm dere again alone..sobs..tts a terrible feelin..n i saw a madman on e way home..he so scary lorx..i almost cried k..lols..
reach home le..online..den chat..went to cousin hse walk movie.dvd..lols..

was so tired lahx..ard midnite den sleep..
e nxt dae..went to gek poh study..lols..wif sis n her fren..den her fren taught mi math lorx..lols..hais..i'm a failure..sad arx..hahax..

den walk ard gek poh..was so tired..den chat wif tt shop owner for veri long..coz he use my sis hp to send songs..lols..n i bought sth frm him..lolx..shall buy more nxt tym..coz nvr bring enuff cash..lols..

n todae..went to jurong spring cc study..hahax..i went to find someone..hahax..hes nt surprise to c mi..make mi so disappointed.lols..jkjk..
wanted to scare him de..in e end he sit at e end dere..lolx..den we study til noon..ard 4 plus..den went home..took 335 home..ha..u veri funni lehx..in e bus..u sit until lyk i wil eat u up lidat..hahax..hmmm..dunno lahx..lols..

reach home..slp..lols..1 hr..den wake up..feel veri sick..wanna vomit..den online as i cant slp le..lols..den aunt came..

n sth happen..i came to noe sth..hais..sad..

she cried..i alomost cry too..sobs..shall nt sae here..its my privacy n family tinks..lols

den nw i'm using com lorx..so sianx..den juz nw went downstairs to buy sth..hahax..

blastin music juz nw..nt reali loud lahx..lols

ermx..k lahx..forgot wat to write le..lols..continue nxt tym..hahax..tc all..

nitex~

pictures~

2006-10-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

frenz outin..lols..

2006-10-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...nvr slp ytd..was darn tired lahx..but wen i tink of e ice skatin in e noon..felt so awake again..hehex..
went to use com in e mornin..to upload sth..n do sth..hahax.. den i go charge hp..den cal someone n sms someone..den i get ready to go off..hehex..

was wearin my clothes inner..lols..coz lata mum scold..i so clever..hahax..lols..den quickly change shorts..n off i go to je..hehex..reach dere..called mg..den i study wif him..hahax..wei xiang oso dere..den i saw a pink cig..its nice..hahax..sorrie arx..i dun smoke..its strawberry flavour..

den meet wenya..she come n find mi..lols..den went to eat sth..n den went to shop..we ate in mac..i was so full..hahax..gab on e way here..shes late..ahhax..she wore skirt so cant skate..tts an excuse..lalala~..nxt tym she wil go wif us..she stay outisde n look after bags for us..lols..after awhile hui min came..so we chatted awhile n we went in to skate..it wil close at 545..so we skate awhile oni..but we had fun..xD..reali so long nvr skate le..but i nvr fall once..hehex..=p..

we took photos..n tok on e fone..coz is free de..ahhax..den someone tok to gab.dae r playin truth dare bahx.. lame lorx..lols..nvm abt tt..we teach wenya how to skate..shes a fast learner..within ahile..she noe how to skate le..hehex..gt talent arx..hahax..den i skate wif hm fast fast de..fun man..lols..

saw some cute guys lahx..lols..lalala~ bleahx..

at 545..we went off..went to eat..i nvr eat lahx...lols..den b4 tt..at mac..mi n wenya saw some small boys..den dae scared to look at mi lidat..lols..i wun eat dem up de mahx..haiyo..small boi is small boi..hahax..lalala~..

we went to shop awhile..hui min went off first..den i do a key..hello kitty de..so special..i lyk it soooo much..n dae gave mi a present..was sosurprise lorx..hehex..nice..a wallet n a hello kitty hp sticker..ty soooo much..i appreciate it..thx alot=)

den walk home frm je..we took lots of lame pics..some were nice some were lame some were sweet..hehex..den dae come my hse awhile to drink water..n tok awhile den look at e pics in e past de..hahax..

memories..lols.

den dae go home le..i went to buy sth...

after tt cousin bdae ..go eat cake..nvr reali take pics..coz she dun wanna take..lols..den so full nw..hahax..i'm goin to gain weight tis mth le..so mani ppl bdae..duhhx..hahax..

k..long entry rt..so i juz end here le..

i enjoyed myself todae alot..tc all..
K|tTy..(",)

2006-10-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

.....hmmm..ytd was mid-autumn festival..quite fun..i went to eat steamboat wif dem..=) b4 tt went to shop..at queensway n orchard..alot lahx..so tired lorx..den by chance i saw sth..sth i promise to do for him de..ard 2 yrs le..hais..if i do.wil he accept..i dunno..tts a qns..nvm..i wil stil do..for my frenz n mi..n someone..its quite exp lahx..den someone told mi chi garden is cheaper..so maybe he help mi do first lorx..=p..
dae gt stead le lorx..den ps us..jk..lols..juz tt we felt so left out..suddenly gt gf..hahax..nvm lahx..used to it..i'm oways e extra..even if i hav a bf..i'm lyk nvr went out wif dem le..i mean seldom..den wen tgt wif him..i wun go out wif my fren tgt wif him.. i dunno lahx..

forget it lahx..i wanna get used to being alone..reali..i dun really lyk crowds..it make mi feels so uncomfortable..i dunno y..i wil feel sick..reali sick..wen i came home..i felt so unwell..but didnt sae out.coz i'm oways sick ..so wats e point of sayin out..nobody wil care too..i'm pessimistic..so no matter wat u guys wanna sae..i wun mind..

ytd went to meet my fren..den came down awhile..he went to meet his frenz..i played candles wif my family n cousins..we played n chatted til 2 plus..3 plus den slp..i'm so tired..n i woke up ard 8 plus..duno y..maybe coz i cant slp well...was cryin ba..wen listenin to songs..i felt so weak once again..hais..

den todae..went to jp meet fren take tinks..waited for an hr..coz i went out early..i bring bks out..in e end..he's sick..so cnt study..nvm..dere wil be a nxt tym..

walk home frm 5 plus dere to my hse..was so tired..heatstroke..almost fainted..reach home use com n fell asleep..too tired le..woke up feel lyk vomittin..i felt so unwell these few days..i'm puzzled too..

slp til nite..ate dinner..use com til nw..saw someone online..n wen i online he offline..maybe i'm tinkin too much..hais..i dun wanna care le..forget..juz forget it..i'm tired..dun wish to tink animore..i dunno wil i be able to walk on..i'm juz lyk stayin at e same pace for so long..hais..sobs..no words could describe how i feel..

chalet ~

2006-10-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

DAY 1...

hahax..hmmmm..wil be a long entry..dun blame mi arx..hahax..if dun wanna read ..juz right click..=p..
k..here it goes..hahax..

in e mornin..wake up to prepare le..actually packed few days ago le..hhax..lolx..i'm stupid lahx..hahax..den meet dem at 1145 at bustop..dunno hu late lorx..den stil wanna go eat..make mi wait sooooo long..lucky i gt my mp3..hahax..lalala~..
took 99 to shaun's hse..n guess wat..he;s nt at home..hahax..fetch angie..den we went to his hse..gt his sis n bro..n his frenz..haah..den we went to his rm..woah..hahax..his bed so gd de..at e top..specially for him de..stil go do dunno wat..bcome so high..lolx..its nice lorx.hehex..
den tok to his bro..he is sooooooo cute lorx..look lyk shaun oso.hahax..pri 6..lolx..so cute..den e way he tok veri ke ai de..hahax..
few mins after..shaun came bck..lolx..n angie waitin outside..so we headed to sentosa..we took cab dere..n we bully shaun to pay..lalala..hahax..bleahx.
den stop at sentosa coasta sands resort..lolx..e room soooooooo big lehx..big until gt 2 small beds..den horx..big until gt so mani space to walk..hahax..lolx.."big"..haiyo..all squeeze in..haha..bcum sandwich le lahx..hahax..lolx.. den unpack tinks..lolx..nth to do..den we go n swim..deres oni 7 of us ..lolx..ermx..gt shaun birthdae boi..alan..jason..mi..angie..their frenz..hahax..

swim until so long..my hands r leg r dumb le..sooo tired lorx..den 6 plus bbq..someone took our pit..hahax..we was lyk wat e..den i n e end we heck lorx..juz go bbq..hahax..i nvr bbq lahx..pai sehx ..hahax..coz guys bbq mahx..den no space oso..lolx..we ate abit oni lorx..hhahax..
den gt bdae cake le..lolx..2 worx..hahax..den sing song for him..he so touched..seems lahx..lolx..i dunno..den dere de ppl oso so enthu help us sing oso..lolx..den we friendly sae ty..hahax..shaun gave dem cakes to eat..hahax..its nice e cake..lolx..
hmnmm..after eatin..its bdae bash..woah...those guys r fierce..lolx..hit until soooo hard..its tgt de lorx..so pain..i can imagine..hahax..lolx..den threw him into e water..dae played cards..hahax..

n in e end..we all went to swim..i was thrown into e water by 2 stupid boi..lolx..haiyo..dae pull mi lorx..den i cling to e railing..i mean e poles lahx or wateva it is..lolx.. den ahhhhhh..dere i go screamin..den tupdup..i'm inside e pool le..lolx..funni? lame lahx mi..pardon mi den..hahax.lalala~
i choked n i vomitted..its gross lahx..hahax..den dae kena shock..dae tot nth wil happen..wen dae turn their face..i vomit aredy..hahax..den my eyes r swollen lorx..after tt vomitting..den wa lau..i felt so unwell..but shaun so gentlemen..hahax..i tot hu pat my bck..den i vomit finish le saw him behind..hahax..
drank vodka after tt..i didnt noe e alcohol content was so much..i drank alot..lolx..but nt drunk lahx..hahax..mixed wif 7up..lolx..
n my torch light spoiled..dunno hu make spoil de lorx..hahax..jkjk..no offence arx..lolx..den we went bck to e rm..i bathed..nobody bathe..soooooo dirty..tsk tsk tsk..hAhax..den i brush my teeth..nobody brushed too...tsk tsk..haiyo..how can those guys be sooooooo dirty..lolx.

den dae playe poker..lolx..i nvr play lahx..nt fun de..i watch tv..listen to songs..chattin n crappin..hahx..gt alot of lobster to tok..cant blame..den at nite..i cant even slp..thz to ks..hahax..lolx..n his bro..lolx..so noisy..hahax..den stil gt someone n someone lorx..take e whole bed..tsk tsk..one blanket 2 ppl..we 9 ppl one blanket..u c..e diff..tsk tsk tsk..hahax..cant blame lahx..he gt someone to tc mahx..ahhax..den ahem..sth happen after tt..lolx..shall nt elaborate..u all can tink abt it..wat can a guy do after he's drunk? lalala~ahhax..

i listen to mp3 thru out e nite..den mornin wake up..soooooo tired le..dae stil wanna swim..wah..sianz lorx..hahax..

DAY 2..

angie went home..their frenz went home too..so sad..haix..den become boring le..left mi one ger..hahax..but i sae i wanna stay de mahx..so i stayed..lolx...n i called someone to chat..hehex..lalaal~
den went to swim again lorx..was so tired le..leg cramp..i suffered frm alot of injuries..alot lorx..my plasters all use finish le..hahax..lolx..den ard gt 6 cuts or sth..dunno..hahax..
so pain lahx..lucky no sunburn..coz i applied some lotion..lolx..den went to 7 eleven at midnite..lolx..nvr play games..ya..we watch tv at e receptionist dere..gt one tv ..lolx..den stupid someone called..i listened to it..den after tt i cried.haix..of coz nt happi de lahx..lolx..den dae dunno lahx..i nvr tel dem..juz told dem he called..hais..spoil my mood..after tt i was moody all e way bck..sorrie arx..for being so emo..i'm liddat le..so so sorrie..heex..
dae ps mi alot lahx..lolx..go outside tok left mi alone in e rm..so scary lorx..dun tink i'm brave k..i'm nt..lolx..den i sms ppl lorx..reply so mani..den in e end it stopped..dunno wt happen to him..lolx..
den watch tv..ya..noon i watch tv..chn u..lolx..den dae wanna go out le..so i went too..lolx..
on e sec dae nth much lahx..hahax..
we juz took e tram alot of tyms..tts all..n e bus..hahax..

i cant slp at nite too...too noisy oso..thx to tt person..hahax..den in e end i tink i slept in e mornin..coz i dunno dae wake up le..so i muz be asleep den..lolx..awile oni..but was in deep slp..coz veri tired..lolx..my mp3 flat le lorx..no batt..nvr buy..no $ le..hahax.
den ytd nite drank vodka..smirnoff..premium vodka..np.21..40%..lolx..

i'm so bored..so i wrote a letter..sorted out my tots..heex..felt so free once again..

day 3..woke up..packed tinks..went home..checked out..lolx..took taxi..slept on e way bck..hehex..
tts all..lolx..

reached home realise my mum nvr took e key at door..dotx..lata someone come take tinks she oso dunno..lolx.lucky i come bck le..lolx..
den sooo hungry nw lahx..lolx..
unpacked my tinks..washed it..den charged my cam batt..den use com..update pics..den update profile..lolx..listen to songs..goin to slp soon..cant tahan le..goin to be dead soon..lolx..
at nite waitin for canin le..sobx..sianz lahx..fuck lorx..sis can go..i cant go..wat e ..tmd..arghz~..wateva..i'm nt goin to care so much..hahax..lalala~

Kitty wil be strong again..no matter wat..she wont let her tears drop so easily le..she wil be stonger for her own sake..she wil forget everytink soon..she nids tym to heal her emotional wounds n e tears she cried to dry..in her heart..someplace is dead aredy..she wun ever look bck again..she learn how to be strong..learnt how to let go..learnt nt to tink so much again..she wil do it..as she promised..=)

2006-09-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

Kung Alam Mo Lang - If You Only Knew
by Roxie Barcelo

Hindi mo na kailangan pa,
Ito'y sabihin pa.
Na mayro'ng nagbago
Sa loob ng puso mo.

You really don't need
To say it.
That something have changed
In your heart.

Wala akong magagawa,
Kung 'di palayain ka.
Kaya pinilit kong,
Huwag aminin sa iyo.

There's nothing I can do,
But to let you go.
So I forced myself,
Not to admit it to you.

Kung alam mo lang kaya
Ang tunay na nadarama
Nanaisin mo pa bang
Lumayo sa piling ko?

If you only knew
What i truely felt.
Would you still want
Not to be by my side?

At kung alam mo lang sana,
Kailan ma'y di mawawala.
Ang pag-ibig ko sa 'yo
Laging nasa puso ko.

And maybe if you only knew,
It will never disappear.
My love for you
Will always be in my heart.

Akala ko ay kaya na,
Ngayong wala ka na.
Ngunit hindi pala,
Limutin ka'y 'di magawa.

I thought I can make it,
Now that you're gone.
But I can't,
To forget you I can never do.

Palagi kong tinatanong
Sa sarili kong ito:
Ikaw ba'y lalayo
Kung lahat ay inamin ko?

I kept asking
Myself this:
Would you still leave
If I admitted everything?

Kung alam mo lang kaya
Ang tunay na nadarama.
Nanaisin mo pa bang
Lumayo sa piling ko? ohhh

If you only knew
What I truely felt.
Would you still want
To be away from my side? ohhh

At kung alam mo lang sana,
Kailan ma'y 'di mawawala.
Ang pag-ibig ko sa 'yo
Laging nasa puso ko.

And maybe if you only knew,
It will never disappear.
My love for you,
Will always be in my heart.

Hmmm..

Pipilitin kong itago ang lahat n'ito.
Ngunit patuloy kong tanong,
Kailan kaya magwawakas?
Ohh..ito

I'll force myself to hide all this.
But i will keep asking,
When will all of this end?
Ohh.. ("ito": this << I've already input it up there)

Kung alam mo lang kaya
Ang tunay na nadarama.
Nanaisin mo pa bang
Lumayo sa piling ko? ohhh

If you only knew
What I truely felt.
Would you still want
Not to be by my side? ohhhh

At kung alam mo lang sana,
Kailan ma'y 'di mawawala.
Ang pag-ibig ko sa 'yo,
Laging nasa puso ko.

And maybe if you only knew,
It will never disappear.
My love for you,
Will always be in my heart.

Kung alam mo lang kaya
Ang tunay na nadarama.
Nanaisin mo pa ba
Lumayo sa piling ko?

If you only knew
What I truely felt.
Would you still want
To be away from my side?

2006-09-20T14:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm..ytd had movie marathon..watched 3 cds..shes e man ..50 first dates..gigolo..alll were nice..hehex..

3 plus den slp..den woke up 12 plus todae..was hungry...mooncake was e breakfast for mi..hahax..pathetic rt..lolx..den usin com till nw..chattin watchin youtube..slakin..listenin to songs..

den someone online..nt sayin who..i tink he doesnt even noe tt i actually exist..haix..forget it den..

nt goin out todae as i was totally exhausted..hahax..lolx..so i'm goin to stay at home whole dae..hehex..=p..

my frens band wil be performin at esplanade tis sat...i would wan to go..hahax..if i'm free..i wil go down support him..heex..

tts all..tata~

2006-09-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

woke up in e morin..den prepare to go swimmin le..hahax..went to swim wif my cousin..we had fun..i lyk one yr nvr go le..soooo long liaox..hehex..den injured myself..lyk my toes get scratch..den leg oso..hahax..nearly out of breath after swimmin a few laps..lolx..too long nvr exercise le..hahax..lol..den saw a few cute guys..lolx..hehex..

den went to lazy river to slack..hahax..den went to wave pool wait for ee wave to come..so long..hahax..den nw i'm tanned...argh~ i hate it..its been so long lahx..i wait for so long den quite fair le..nw tanned again..hmph..haax..

den went to eat lunch wif sis n cousin..hahax..den went to video ezy rent cds..goin to ton thru e nite..hahax.. hmmm..den went to prima deli interview..she sae wil cal mi if i gt listed..hahax..lolx..

went home..my ice cream melts..haax..its ben n jerry's ice cream..choc fudge brownie..hahax..its nice nice..lalala~
hahax..den use com til nw..chattin wif my ex pri sch de frenz..heex..den watchin tv nw..korean drama..hahax..love betrayal..y am i watchin all tis.. i oso dunno y..coz its e tv show de..nt i chose de..hahax..so dun tink of mi oways tryin to hav revenge..i'm nt k..hahax..

my hair stil cant grow..sobx..i wan it long on my bdae..can ??? lolx..den i shall do some extension den..lol..jkjk..hahax..

hmmmm..lata goin to slp le..so tired..wake up so early..

tml is a brand new day..everytink wil be refresh..hehex..=)

2006-09-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

ate 3 panadols again..i'm nt slpin yet..hahax..pro rt..lolx.jk..one week le..haven recover..but i stil believe..lolx..tt i wil get well soon..hahax..or else i'm reali goin to c doc le..

nw dae watchin big mama hse 2..hahax..

tml mornin goin to swimmin..dunno can wake up anotx..or maybe if i go..i wil rot in tt pool..nt movin at all..juz stay dere..lolx..i'm oways lidat..hahax..i cant swim wen i dun hav goggles..lolx..weird rt..dunno lehx..maybe no confidence..scared i wil drown..hahax..i oso cant c mahx..veri pain..lolx..

tml lata sunburn how..hahax..i run out of sunblock lotion.. it costs alot u noe..so exp for a small bottle..lolx..coz i buy 130 de..siao lahz mi..hahax..coz i dun wanna get tanned mahx..lolx..

argh..tt panadol reali sucks..i stil havin flu nw..nxt tym take whole packet lahx..lolx..drug abuse..den i wil nt wake up animore..c mi in e hospital..lolx..jk..
at first i oni tot it was slight flu..den it wasnt..so long le..wonder wat am i suffering frm..lolx..

"i understand.."
if tym could turn bck..i would..

2006-09-18T19:43:00.000+08:00

todae 5am den slp..was up watchin vcd..at cousin hse.den eat snacks n drank milo..hahax..wat u all tink i drinkin..lolx...hahax..watch a cinderella story..so sad n touchin..but it a happi endin..hehex..

ytd ate 3 panadols..lolx..coz no effect mahx..den horx i slp..almost cant wake up..coz too drowsy le..lolx..i'm allergic to medicine..reali..tt tym doc giv mi eat vomit de pills den i lyk drunk lidat...hahax..cant walk properly..wil faint lidat..i noe tt tym veri sick..e doc gib mi a total of 8 medicine..siaoz rt..hahax..i oso tink so..but den he oni giv mi 1 dae mc..den y he giv mi so mani pills ? dotx..hahax..eat until i scared lorx..although i noe how to swallow veri well..lolx..my bro n sis cant swallow..ahhax.lalala~..so i'm considered veri gd le..i can even swallow those big big de pills..hahax..dunno y..maybe my throat veri big..ahhax..so i oways scream so loud..muz understand mi..hahax..wen i takin thrill rides..i can scream dunno lyk wat..ahhax..those sit beside mi b4 sld noe..ahhax..

ermx..after tt i listen to mp3 to slp..tts wat i do wen i cant slp n use songs to numb mi as tears drop down n i wil soon fall asleep..u noe wen u cry its easier to slp? hahax...

todae my hamster fight wif each other..first tym fite until so serious...one bleed..den another wan injured..dae lyk dun wanna let go..den keep bitin..eee..eewkss..i c liao..wa lao..lyk wanna vomit..den part of e fur lost liaox..hahax..nw separate dem..

ate dinner le..nt full coz i didnt eat much..dun feel lyk eatin..
stil gettin upset wif my hair..haix..so regret lorx..ahhhh..grrrrr...hahax..

foldin stars nw..my hand wanna break le..or rather my fingers.coz squeeze until so pain..nw red red le..hahax..but i lyk foldin it..but some pple dun lyk my stars..while some ppl appreciate it..n thank mi for tt..

put it in a tiny jar.hahax..

wanna go learn kniitin in a few days tym..heex..so happi..

bro so stupid lahx..hahax..tt dae sit on my bed play ps..argh~ den i cant slp..e sound oso disturb mi..hahax..den he sit on e other bed den dad came in he sae gt earthquake shove him down..lolx..tts lame rt..lolx..den lie on my legs..so heavy..lyk a pig..lolx..

someone told mi sth..hahax..gd luck den..lolx..

another someone~ bluff mi..sae he gt wat wat wat..in e end dun hav..lolx..den same as someone..haix..nxt tym i wil remind myself nt to ask dem out again..

its lyk waitin for rain to fall in drought..it seems impossible n its disappointing...

2006-09-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

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2006-09-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

tada~

i love dem..

cute rt...

my son..=)

2006-09-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

went to westmall in e noon..at dere til 7 plus..den went to my hse dere..cut hair at evolution..omg..its soooo short nw..sobx..feel lyk cryin le lahx..sad lorx..i let it grow until so long liaox..den i ask him to cut one inch..he cut dunno how mani inch..argh~..haix..my hair cant grow long de..dunno y everytym tt length..i wil go cut..hahax..weird arx...lolx..

reach home..dae didnt notice anitink..ahhax..gd lorx..lolx..den i foldin stars..veri small de..mini type..hahax..i bought a precious moments de message board..to write sth lorx..hahax..n can remind mi tinks...i'm a muddleheaded person..lolx..

was chattin wif my neighbour all e way bck to home..hahax..mention abt somone..haix..stil rmb tt tym at e startin of e world cup..everytink was fine..lyk e climax of e relationship..den end of worldcup we ended..duhz..so dumb rt..n so dramatic..dunno y..it rained tt dae oso..midnite le..ard 4 plus..i was watchin worldcup den it rained so heavily..my heart gt heavy too..at tt point of tym i wanna sms him de..but den i juz flip bck my fone..den go to slp..coz i dun tink he would care..
tt dae wanna tel him de is to ask him tc..dun catch a cold.coz its rainin den veri cold.. i nvr sms in e end coz i scared he wil sae another tink.. i actually didnt demand u anitink..tt tym i ask u come find mi coz u r nt seriously sick den i ask u to come.it seems lyk i'm forcin u..isnt it ? u didnt oways make mi sad..i'm e wan hu cause hurt to u..i noe u dun lyk mi more compared to past..i can feel it..

tt dae b4...tt nite i dreamt..i was cryin in e dream..wen i woke up..i crie again..coz i'm reali scared..but it actually happen in e noon...i cant avoid it..gotta face it..so nw u wil noe y...

2006-09-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

woke up in e mornin..n dad was at home..duhxx..
den on e com to play..listenin to song..chatted on msn/.lata goin out..

n sth happen..my mum ask mi to take in e clothes..i was lyk @&%$#@..coz i dun wanna take mahx..den she ask mi take..in e end i drop bro uni...ass..den she scold mi for nth..i aredy told her tt i dun wanna TAKE !!!
stupid..fuck lorx..i was lyk wat e hell..y scold mi..blahx~..i'm soooo angry lahx..wen i sae i dun wanna do sth..wen someone force mi to..i wil fed up n get pissed of..reali lorx..sae until lyk my fault..its nt tt light either..i'm nt so strong oso..dotx lahx..
den bro go take e handle n take..

spoil my mood..@$#%$#&#$#!@$%#$&^%(^(!~~ i'm soooooooo.......arghz~~~~!!!!!

2006-09-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

I've always wanted to tell you
You've given me unbelieveable happiness, like an oasis to the desert
Say you will always be with me
Be my root, my wings, let me fly and give me a home to return to

I'm willing and I can give you everything without regret
Let's be together, watching time go by, remembering how we loved each other

This is love, loving you. There's sadness, there's joy and there's you. It's meaningful even if it's ordinary
This is love, loving you. Sweet and peaceful. This feeling is you

I've always wanted to tell you
You've given me unbelieveable happiness, like an oasis to the desert
Say you will always be with me
Be my root, my wings, let me fly and give me a home to return to

I'm willing, really I'm willing to give you everything and I need to protect you.
Oh, together as time goes by, please remember how much I love you
Oh, this is love, loving you. Never leaving you, never caring as we go down the road where there's hardship and trials.

This is love, loving you. Giving you spendid fortune placed in the palm of your hand
Oh, this is love, loving you. I'm also willing
Oh, this is love, loving you. Let's be together.

unbelievable..
junn <3 ??? foreva

tui hou~ =(

2006-09-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
li kai ni yi hou
bing mei you geng zi you
suan suan de kong qi
xiu chu wo men de ju li
yi mu chui xin de jie ju
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
zha gan le hui yi
na xiao rong shi xia ji
ni wo de guo qu
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
que yang guo hou de ai qing
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
zhi shi wang le zhe me tui hou
xin shi dan dan gei de cheng nuo
quan bei shi jian pu le kong
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei you cuo
zhi shi fen shou hui bi jiao hao guo
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai qu/dai xu
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tts e song i hav been hearin it over n over again..
at first i dunno e lyrics..den keep listenin..
todae den noe e lyrics..
its no wonder i'm hearin it so mani tyms..
haix..
=(
speechless..da words sae it all..

2006-09-16T17:33:00.000+08:00

woke up at 8 plus early in e mornin..siao rt..lolx..coz i was awake by my mum..she was callin my sis..lolx..den i wake up le..hhax..finally i gt breakfast to eat..hahax..den iwent to slp again..lolx..mum went off le..go do passport..wanted to acc her but den i fall asleep..n she nvr wake mi up..so lidat lorx..lolx..

slp til 12 plus..on com..i was home alone..n someone finally online..heex..den chat..hahax..was wachin youtube..hmmm..watch finish le...tt korean drama..veri nice..but den too short..oni 12 eps..ha..n i cried even worse lahx..lolx..she died in e end..coz she gt some illness..or rather a heart problem..hmmmm..sad lorx..e guy loves her so much..n she sae she want to live until e first snow..but she died b4 tt..n e snow falls..sooooo sad rt..haix..tinks oways happen lidat..wen u wished for sth..it wun reali happen..wen u hav e patience to wait for it..it wun appear animore..n those words r juz empty words..easily erased...

wen i was small..hav heart problem..my parents didnt tel mi abt it..as i was too small to noe tt..it was a funtional murmur..ermx..lyk gt 2 heartbeats..thudin thuddin im my body..i can feel it last yr..wen i was reali sad..so i cant reali be agitated..or else it wil come again..wen i scream too loud n cry..i cant reali breathe..but tis tink gt serious n non serious de..mine in nt serious de..juz slight..mani ppl oso can die frm tis..seems pretty sad rt..hahax..aiya..soooo long le..lyk in pri 1 lidat..den i went to hospital for 5 yrs..den e doc would lyk giv mi medicine to eat..n vitamins..so my height is affected..den ask mi drink milk..but of coz my mum nvr buy for mi..even if she buy..i oso wun drink..but nw i dare to drink le..lolx.. hahax..too late la..i cant grow le..lolx..

i sumtyms hope i would die..den dun hav to do so mani stupid tinks..hahax..die peacefully..

i'm tinkin too much yea??? lolx..

i'm glad u r dere..i miss you..

K|tTy~

2006-09-16T00:42:00.000+08:00

do nth much todae..juz havin flu e whole dae..used 2 whole box of tissue at noon..hahax..i tink it gettin more serious lahx..haix..nvm..i wil get betta..=)

it rained todae..i'm gettin emotional..hmmm..den use com til my bro came..

use outside com till nw..hahax..n its lyk midnite nw..

watchin you tube..actually is hear e song frm a blog den i go find e drama..korean drama..its nice...n i cried lyk a fool..i dunno y..my heart hurts for no reason..perhaps deres a reason..but i couldnt sae it out..it feels lyk sth is blockin mi..so i felt so stuff up inside..its painful..it hurt so much tt i cant breathe..i noe u wil hurt more den mi..if i stay by u..u wil feel more hurt later..everytink is fadin frm my memories..

juz being emo here..write out all my tots so tt i cld feel betta..but i dun wish to let him insult mi or wateva it is..coz tis is my blog..i'm free to write anitink..u dun hav e rt to sae anitink..coz.......................

juz wanna sae i miss someone soooo much..wae u go ? i cant contact u..

2006-09-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

When Can My Heart Beat Again
When Does The Pain Ever End
When Do The Tears Stop From Running Over
When Does You´ll Get Over It Begin
I Hear What You´re Sayin´
But I Swear That It´s Not Making Sense
So When Can I See You
When Can I See You Again
When Can My Heart Beat Again
When Can I See You Again
And When Can I Breathe Once Again
When Can I See You Again

When Does My Someday Begin
When I´ll Find Someone Again
And What If I Still Am Not Truly Over
What Am I Supposed To Do Then

Please Hear What I´m Sayin´
Even If，If It´s Not Making Sense
So When Can I See You

i miss you so much...sobx

2006-09-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

ytd slp late in e nite..was chattin on msn wif someone..hahax..den i had a dream..dreamt abt someone..nt him..ahhax..lolx..den i tink i bite my tongue..coz deres a ucler in my tongue nw..veri pain..den i accidentally bite it..sobx..soooo pian lorx..haix..hahax..den had a cut on my leg..dunno y..i tink i knock onto sth..lolx..

wake up tt tym nth to eat..n i haven ate a decent meal since mornin til nw..so pathetic rt..oni ate twisties n 2 spring rolls..hahax..at west mall..went wif my sis n cousin..goin to buy tinks..

todae oso my bro dae..hahax..den ytd 12 am..i let him hear e bdae song frm my fone..lolx..he's touched..hahax..although nvr buy anitink for mi..but den sincerity counts..hahax..saw a wallet..nxt tym den buy for him..

it hard to type nw..coz my hammie bite mi..n it BLEED..ahhh..juz one tym u noe..lolx..it hurts..hahax..den i put plaster..lolx..i take photo as evidence..lolx..i'm bored lahx.hahax..rmb someone told mi nt to play wif hammie..coz dae wil bite..den sae i stupid..lolx..let dem bite..ya lahx..i'm oways stupid mahx..den all those tinks wil happen..includin sth..haix

went to west mall..play arcade..no pple..sis play jurassic park..n tym crisis..i played para..den horx..sis veri funni..shouted wen she came in..den she knock her leg while playin daytona..lolx..so stupid..n nearly lost her fone..wen i called her..she nvr pick up..den i ask her..den she rmb..so dumb..ahhax..lalala`

den went to shop for tinks..hahax..saw tt samsoon pig..i wanna buy..lolx
nth much at west mall..hahax..den took bus to jp..lolx..we were tokin sooo loudly in e bus..luffin n screamin.lolx..den ppl look at us..hahax..so funni lahx..den saw a cute guy..i made a fool of myself again..as usual..lolx..den wen he alight..he looked blur..coz i tink he lose his way..nt sporean bahx..

reach jp..find sth..hahax..den shop awhile..went to ntuc..so fed up lahx..dae sooo long..i was so tired le..den i was moody all e way..bck home..
hahax..i nearly wanna go home first..so sianz..i was yawnin in e bus..
take bro cake lorx..den scared wil smashed..lolx

reached home tt tym..my aunt n nephew was here..hahax..sooooo cute..tis tym another wan came..e another twin..coz e other wan gt chicken pox..hahax..den he recover le..but den pass it to 7 ppl..power sehx..hahax..

den i took photos wif him..so cute..he wear my sunglass..hahax..den i giv him tinks lorx..he play wif mi..hahax..6 yrs old oni..den chat in msn..he type..to my fren..den he sae hi..n tok to e com..tot tt person would hear it..cute rt..so innocent..den lyk veri tian zhen...hehex..

after tt my cousin came..den we cut e cake lorx..hahax..eat le..den tok crap..cousin was sayin alot of tinks to mi..hahax..nt reveali wat she told mi lahx..lalala~..den i tink tt its quite true lorx..hmmm..lyk being used or wat..n blah blah blah..hahax..

den watch final episode of samsoon..hahax..den my other cousin came..den watch tv..tok crap..den watchi white chicks nw..hahax..

my nephew veri cute de..he sit at my table dere..den ask mi can he play sth..den i giv him play hello kitty..lolx..den gt treasure..he sae actually hello kitty dun hav treasure..she dig dig dig den found e treasure..soooo cute lorx..hahax..den i carry him on my laps..lolx..play com..so funni..ahahx.. he sae he gt no gf..gt 4 bf..lolx..wat e..1 malay 3 chi..hahax..he pro lahx..lolx..den he told mi gt one beautiful ger in her claz..but she dun lyk..coz she bully him..den her name is sabrina..hahax..

tt tym i stil rmb his bro go cyling wif mi..den he goes"jie jie,..bu yao qu na me yuan" sweet rt ???hahax..

gt alot of tink to sae..but den forgot le..hahax...so forget it..lolx..

tts all..tc..nitex nitex..

i miss you (someone)
muackz~
('('o^)')..('',)
*oink
1:06am

2006-09-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

early in e mornin wake up..called mg..hahax..to meet in e noon..den i changeed..put some make up..n off to lib..lolx..hahax..reach dere early..he was late..hahax..i havin flu..so xin ku..den i go find place to sit..hahax..4thfloor..nt mani ppl..coz stil early.hahax..wen he reach..hahax..he take out 4 packets of tissue..lolx..n i used all of it..power sia..lolx..cnt blame mahx..serious flu..for few days le..nvr go c doc..ahhax..no money lahx..den horx..tt stupid panadol no use de..nxt tym dun eat..lol..

n we studied..hahax..veri slack lahx..he told mi he takin prelims at hks..lolx..startin on fri..hahax..so poor tink..lolx..hmm..den alot of tinks happen..i wil fill it up one by one..ahhax..lolx..

wen we sit rt..den saw alot of ppl walkin past..lolx..n wen i went in tt tym saw a cute korean guy..he sae yea...to his fren..so funni..e meanin is yes or ya..hahax..den he goes yea yea yea..soooo funni..lolx..

we sit at e table dere..den deres a small ger stin nxt to us..ahhax..n i saw her buyin food..den i wanna buy oso..but den my notes tt machine cant take in..so stupid..den i ask ppl to change..den alot of dem dun hav..ppl dere r poor..lolx..jk..den ask ask ask ..hahax..finally i ask a group of gers den dae hav..hahax./.i buy a pckt of chips ..den another tidbits..hahax..

n i saw one ger opp mi..eatin a big lollipop./.u noe tt kind round round de..flat flat de..hahax..soooo big lorx..its lyk e size of 8 lollipop tgt..soooo big tt i keep on luffin..coz she lick one tym den put bck..lolx..tt was quite gross..hahax..

den beside us gt one chio ger..mg wanna ask her no..den keep on lookin at her..after tt...ahem..her bf came..mg heart was broken..lolx..jk..hahax..sad lahx..ha..den cnt take liao lorx..

beside us stil gt malay gers..n mg quite interested..but den juz wanna hav fun lahx..lol..n ke came..so he di siao..take his fone n msg..den pass to e gers..hahax..den e gers reali giv their nos to him..sooo funni lorx..n den horx..e gers bought 2 cigs frm dem..$1..lolx..so funni..

beside us..wen e ger left..jvs de gers came..n den mg purposely sae sooo loud tt ke wan their nos..but jk de lahx..den e gers look at us..so pai sehx lorx..hahax.sae wat eh..lei..jvss de..e wan pink bag de..long hair de..hahax..n we draw a pic..sayin..girl i wan ya no..lolx..n i colour it..hahax..mani ppl c it lahx..lolx..saw hks de..n ex hks de oso..lolx

reali gt alot of gers past by..lolx..n cute guys..but den lyk smaller den mi..coz dae studyin for n'..hahax..sad arx..jk lahx..lolx..

after tt..5 plus went out liaox..go out tt tym saw lydia n xiao yuan..hahax..ermx..den oso gt hks de..hahax..ermx..i saw a knittin de tink..den e person sae if i buy wil teach mi foc..hahax..nxt tym i wil buy..den do for my special someone..hehex..

dae smoke lorx..n i nt near dem..i oso flu..so cant smell anitink..den i sit beside dem..lucky no cops arx..lolx..jkjk..oso dun look lyk underage..lolx..hmm..den went to arcade play para..hahax..c ke paly video games..hahax..after tt lyk nth le..went home..took 334..wif ke..he alight at 5 plus dere..ha..den so tired in e bus..coz standin..den he ask abt mi n him..den i sae no more le..

reach home..mum bathin..den i cnt go in..went to cousin hse..hahax..cookie so stupid..den i lyk kick him..soft soft de lahx..nt hard..lolx..den she stil wanna play wif mi..dotx..hahax..den listen to mv..quite nice..

"i love you so much..u hurt mi so bad"
ironic..
duhhx..tts all..>.<

2006-09-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

didny went swimmin in e end..cousin sae too tired le..b4 tt dae went to play badminton..i didnt go..coz i dun lyk..lolx

so slackin e whole dae..n i found out sth..hmmm..its been so long lahx..hahax..ard 3 yrs ?? nearly..hahax..ermx..nxt tym wil tel him de..hahax..coz dun feel lyk sayin nw..he oso nt in a mood..ahhax..so nxt tym lorx..

tt someone finally reply mi..hahax..nt tt wan..lolx..den chat lorx..hahax..nth much lahx..todae crap wif one of my fren oso..tok alot..ahhax..all those past stuffs..its worth rememberin..heex..

watch youtube..love to kill..its sad..he wanna revenge..coz tt ger cause him to lose his bro..he jump down e buildin..nt purposely de..coz he saw e big screen across his roof..n he wanna touch her face n feel it..n he phewwwww off..down..so sad..so he wanna take revenge..i tink in e end he reali fall in love wif tt ger..tt story veri long..hahax..dunno wen can watch finish..lolx..

"compromise my shortcomings..for i am nt perfect.."

it makes my heart aches seeing you like that...

2006-09-12T19:36:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..juz ate dinner..ate fast fast..coz dad keep on naggin...agrh..sae mi shorty..in teochew lahx..or rather lyk ai dong gua..he has been callin mi tt since i was young..tt is y i didnt grow ani taller..hahax..jk lahx..aiya..cant grow tall oso lidat mahx..hahax..life is stil e same..i'm nt so pessimistic abt it de..lolx..

watch tv juz nw..its been sooo long since i watch noon de shows..dunno lehx..maybe i was using com e whole dae bahx..or watchin youtube..ahhax..n of coz dere another reason..i dun wanna sae..hahax..bleahx..its related to someone..hahax..

tink tt someone went overseas..haven been online for days..n he didnt told mi..haix..ya lahx..he hav e rt nt to tel mi..but den..can sae wat..hahax..so wen i sms him he nvr reply..lolx..

tt 6pm show korean de..n i tot stil showin glass shoes..so i nvr on e tv at noon for soooooo long..lolx..its nice..but den 7 episodes le..i miss it..lolx..okie lahx..nt tt far to watch it now..ahhax..ermx..its abt a family..e woman snatch away her husband..such a slut..den her son died in e mountain coz he was freezed to death..so poor tink...n her sis wanna revenge..her mum lose her sight after such a great blow..its sad.. tt woman is an actress..her daughter is a reporter..goin to married a rich guy..but den e other ger lyk him..complicated love..hahax..u c..i noe sooo much after an episode..lolx..wil update more tml..

nw msn okie le..nvr down..hahax..

ya..todae listen to alot of songs..quite nice..heex

ermx..tts all for nw..lolx..

2006-09-12T12:00:00.000+08:00

ytd went to eat supper wif my sis n cousin..12 plus..ahhax..den saw a bunch of guys at bb court..dae left a whole junk of rubbish at dere..wat e..so inconsiderate..hahax..lolx..after tt went eat noodles lorx..den sis stomachache..lolx..so webt home..i haven bathe oso..haahx..den e clothe i wearin..gt lyk a pouch or rather a design lahx..den i look lyk a doraemon..hahax..coz dae put tinks into it mahx..hahax..so i sae i'm DORAEMON..hahax..funni rt..lolx..wateva..

reach home..sis bathe first..i was so tired..but after i bathe..i cant slp..i dunno y..haix..den cried lorx..emo lahx..lolx..den listen to bro de radio til dunno wat tym..after tt i fell asleep..n early in e mornin..bro ask wae is his fone..den i giv him bck..i forgot to off it..lolx..so sorrie..hehex...it was 6 plus..n i woke up ard 7 plus..went to slp again..n sis woke mi up by those fone calls..so noisy..but i slp again..lolx..den 10 plus wake up lorx..nth for mi to eat..hahax..

usin com..watch you tube..abit oni..dun feel lyk watchin todae..no mood..dunno y..hahax..wanna go swimmin lata..soooo long nvr go le..hahax..

ytd nearly msg wrong ppl worx..hahax..lucky i press de kuai..hahax..coz i change bck old fone mahx..lolx..den so hard to press..one keypad goin to spoil le..hahax..
mornin change bck..hahax..nw listenin to radio..recently keep on listenin..coz i tink its nice..but den keep on repeatin everydae..lolx..so i keep changin channels..

nvr go out todae..too tired..bck is hurtin mi..ouchs..coz stupid sis ask mi to carry her bag..wat e.hahax..den lidat lorx..so heavy..lolx..oh ya..wen i go eat..saw 4 pht de ppl..lolx..guess how i noe? coz i tink one of dem is my bro fren..ahhax..saw dem in friendster oso..i tink is frens de frens den saw it de..hahax..

hmmmm...nth to do nw..so sianx..nt slpin lahx..hahax..

k lahx,,tts all.. tc.

2006-09-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

woke up quite early todae..den nth for mi to eat again..noe y ? coz my bro sch reopen le..lolx..so nth for mi..ahhax..haix..lolx..

after tt on e com..nt much ppl online..dunno y..lolx..den i jux check mails..n friendster lorx..sianz..ahhx..

someone haven do sth for mi..lolx..ahhax..hmmm..after tt receive a sms frm someone..den gotta go town take sth..hahax..den ask ppl..dae nt free or dun wanna go..haix..u arx..make mi so disappointed..tt tym u nt lidat de..haix..forget it..dun wanna sae tis le..

den evenin meet my sis at raffles place..den i went in e mrt lorx..lolx..sianz..so tired..lolx..juz went to take tinks..quite bo liao lahx..lolx...bo bian mahx..hahax...den eat shi lin chicken...coz haven ate anitink since mornin..lolx..hahax..den sis bought a pouch for bro..he dun wan.coz a little pinkish..so he sae can giv mi..hahax..gd rt..lolx..

after tt took mrt bck..sis went to meet her fren at je..n i took bus home..msg someone..nvr reply again..used to it..hahax..kkx..hmmmm..reach home tt tym..saw a guy..ex fuhua de..find my neighbour..hahax..but he nvr saw mi lahx..lolx..

oh ya..at mrt dere..saw one cute guy..his hairstyle is lyk paul twohill..lolx..hes a mixed blood i tink..coz hes nose veri sharp..ahhax..quite cute..lolx..n he tok eng..i tot wat is he tokin..ahhax..coz i went near him...hahax..lalala~..den in mrt..saw an idiot guy..u noe wat..he wear a suit..den i tink its quite nice..but den wen i look down..he wear a 3/4 pants..n a stupid shoes..lolx..can u imagine??? lolx..i was luffin all e way..wat style do u tink hes wearin..so stupid lorx..no sense of taste..hahax..he ruin his own image..omg..hahax..aiya..he tink he shuai wearin tt..whereas i tink it sucks..hahax..lalala~..juz my opinions lahx..lolx..

reach home eat dinner den watch tv..hahax..same stuffs..

happi tt someone nvr sae anitink abt mi..hahax..hmmmm..i'm glad aniwax..

tml tues...dunno gt go out anotx..no money le..lolx..sianz..i'm oways short of money..hahax..cant giv mi a card..coz i wil juz splurge all of it..lolx.juz swipe n swipe..hahax..

2006-09-10T21:34:00.000+08:00

IF I TALK TO U..WILL U REPLY MI ???

i wanna noe sometinks..

WANNA ASK U BUT I'M SCARED TO KNOW THE ANSWER..

afraid to noe e truth..

2006-09-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

quite happi todae..ahhax..coz someone make mi so happi..lolx..lalala~nt tellin wat happen..happi jiu dui le..hehex..

ermx..do nth much todae..went to neighbour hse n do manicure..haha..wen i woke up den go de..so tired mahx..after i ate i go slp..lolx..dunno y..coz feel lyk slpin..hhex..

ate dinner le..quite full..watchin tv nw..lol..juz nw a show veri funni..a guy tattooed on his bck..Only god can judge mi! find it interestin..hahax..

den nw watchin chn u..wang bu liao..sad lahx..e guy died..hahax..

sian lorx..hahax..nw so cold..i flu again..haix..sianz..lolx..wen can i get well..hahax..its nt feelin gd to be sick..lolx..

felt lyk goin out tml.coz nid to take tinks oso..at town..hu wanna go wif mi??? lolx..someone reject mi..so i dunno find hu to go..lolx..i wun be goin aone lahx..ahhax..

hmmmm...dunno wat to write le..lolx..byeZ...

2006-09-10T00:11:00.000+08:00

woke up early in e mornin..7 plus..siao de..go do tt stupid passport..in e end go dere sae stil gt 2 yrs....sis n dad renew..sian lahx..waste tym lorx..ask mi wake up so early..deprive of my slp..lolx..i'm so tired lahx..

den went beach road..i took e wrong direction..in e end dunno at wae..ahhax..kkx..my fault..took dunno which bus to bugis lahx..reach le den go shop..lolx..saw alot of cute guys..tts for sure..coz dere a bb tornament..lolx..alot lahx..3-3...hahax..
n saw 3 guys givin out newspaper..saw dme a few tyms..coz i walk past a few tyms.nt purposely de lahx..coz went to find tinks..lolx..
took family photo..soooo cute..lolx..squeeze in e cam..lolx..turn out so nice..ahahx..bleah..

den i go templr pray..nt wantin to do so..but den u noe...ahhax..so bo bian..lolx..
bought a hello kitty sling bag..small de..n a small handbag..lolx..a scarf n at-shirt..I.P.zone..lolx..bro bought jeans..lolx..

walk until my leg hurts..wearin heels again..cnt blame..lolx..
after tt went to westmall.. i tot goin home le..in e end surprise mi wif goin somewae..wat e..i tot i cld go home slp..lolx

den stupid bro bought a fone...n change no..lolx..hope he wun let someone noe..ahhax..den sis change card..so long lahx..ard 1hr plus..waitin n our turn..ask ask ask..so long..make mi wait until slp..lolx..i'm a pig..ahhax..

bro so happi lahx..lolx..cant blame..his fone so long liao..so i change he oso wanna change..hmph..lolx..

went home after tt..took 157..saw a cute guy inside bus..i made a fool of myself..coz i almost fall..bcoz of tt driver lahx..dunno how to drive..lolx..den jerk here jerk dere..make mi no balance..ahhax..n my bro make mi..hai wo so pai sehx..den i luff so loud..lolx..ahhax.heck lahx..he oso dunno mi..lol..but i took a few glances at him n he look bck..hahax..

reach home..lie on e floor..i'm dead exhuasted..lolx...den unpack my stuffs..blur blur dunno do wat..on com den go bath..lolx..
after tt hav a serious flu..i'm feelin so sick nw..use tons of tissue..bin nw full liaox..lolx..bought dinner for bro..i flu more worse..coz of e wind..

den watch youtube..korean drama..cried again..nt reali coz of e show..coz it juz tt dae bahx..i dunno lahx..i nvr remind myself..but den tears juz drop..no reason..coz i felt tt everytink has come to an end..

someone make mi so disappointed lahx..wun ask u nxt tym le..u forever wun be free de..reject mi again n again..so i decided nt to ask animore..it wil make mi more sad..

n another someone~ make mi disappointed oso..i didnt noe until i saw sth..haix..i dunno y u do tt lahx..maybe coz i oways tok alot n out of line..den u wil do tt..haix..blame mi bahx..its juz so ironic between u n him..or rather can include mi inside..i dunno y..i dun lyk e feelin..of being tis way..or being betrayed..

XD:)

2006-09-08T10:43:00.000+08:00

hahax..as usual..went to town ytd wif my gf..went to hse first..she arx..change clothes sooooo long..den let mi wait..lolx..stil hav to put make up..ahhax..e outfit nt nice den she go change again.omg..lolx..after tt we headed to my hse..to take tinks..i reminded myself to bring..but i forgot..lolx..den we took 157..after tt go cc..lolx..take her ezlink..shun bian...ahhax..den saw someone~ n someone^...lolx..tt someone^ nose bled..so funni..i gave him e whole packet of tissue..lolx..den lyk wun stop de..lolx..after tt we took 99 to clementi lorx..den took 106 to town..lolx..bus bus bus..i'm tired of it..dunno took how mani trips le..hahax..

reach town..went to far east plaza..n gues wat..she lost e tink i gave her..ahhax..she seems so sad..but it make mi happi abit coz she cares..ahhax..den we search for it..but cant find..haiz..after tt go eat..n her someone came..ahhax..i felt lyk an extra..lolx..de walk walk walk..my legs r breakin..can u imagine walkin frm noon to midnite nonstop..lolx..i noe i'm exggerating..but its true..lolx..summore i wearin heels..i'm dumb lahx..but short mahx.so hav to wear..hahax//lolx.after tt we saw gim yong dae all..dae nvr ask mi out again..hmph..nxt tym dun wanna go out wif dem le..haiz..wat a fren lahx..i so sad lorx..wen i saw tt whole bunch of frenx..lolx..after tt we go eat den took bus home le..

n i stupid stupid go alight at a ulu stop..everyone in e bus was lookin at mi..i'm dumb..n i walk e highway home..am i clever..lolx.i called someone..he nvr pick up..n nvr cal bck..so nw i noe how much i meant in ya heart..haix..u dun even care..so i cried on my way home..saw 2 guys...dae were shocked to c mi..coz at first dae didnt saw mi..after tt i siam past dem..dae shock dao..so funni..n i ran bck home..lolx..

wat an interestin life i hav..lolx..so life is full of colours for mi..lolx..nt juz black n white..ahhax..i'm tokin craps again..

cant slp in e nite..den use com..after tt watch tv den went bck to slp..lolx..my body is aching..ahax..woke up tt tym soooooo pain lahx..

hahax..n i had a nite mare again..i sld hav bought e dreamcatcher ytd..but didnt..coz hui min sae wan sunglasses..den we bought it lorx..hers is blue..mine is obviously pink..lolx..as her present oso..lolx..its nice n cool..hahax..we took card print..it look sort of funni lahx..coz no tym for us to get ready..lolx..but i tink quite nice..lolx..self consolin..lolx...i bought a hello kitty pouch n card holder..lolx..n a note pad..lolx..i spend alot..ahhax..bought a pair of dolphin..its display de..dunno wanna giv to hu lehx..lolx..hmmm...

oh ya..ytd chat wif someone^..so cute..lolx..we chatted awhile den tok alot of craps..lolx..dun worry..nxt tym i wil date u out..ahaax..

nw i goin to eat breakfast le..ahhax..tc all..i'm getin sick..hahax..

2006-09-07T11:39:00.000+08:00

ha..ytd nite wen i lie on my bed..so comfortable...but den horx..veri cold..i use blanket cover my whole body..lol..after tt soooo hot..coz my blanket so thick lahx..hahax..it is suppose to be a double size bed de blanket..buti go n use it..lol..den warm mahx..hahax..

woke up in e mornin..had a bad dream..i was screamin..lolx..so funni..den woke up liao..ahhax..wat a weird dream lahx..forget it..hahax.

my dad sae sat wanna go make passport..coz mine goin to expire le..lolx..i so long nvr go abroad le..sad arx..hahax...den i tink muz go take photo..coz my old wan is ard 6 yrs old..lol..its so long liao..ahhax..

den i wanna go beach road..stil rmb tt tym so funni..i'm so dumb..coz i tot beachroad is sth tt gt beach..den i jiu happi happi go walk dere..den i tot so special..its above e market or coffeeshop..den i so qi dai lorx..lolx..den after tt we reach le..i ask someone n him..dae sae tts beach road..no beach..den i huh???hahax..den dae luff until dunno wat lahx..ahhax..i so stupid lorx..lolx..make mi so happi at first..lolx..in e end no beach..ahhax..
it happen yrs ago..wen e 3 of us r stil gd frenz..but nw...haix..oni mi n someone r gd frenx..den him..haix..he dun wanna befriend him le..but is irony lahx..of wat happen in sch..n tt someone told mi..dun tink tt oni ys fren wil tel u wat happen in sch or wat wat wat...my fren oso wil tel mi de even if i dun ask...k?? dun tink ani ways..its nt wat u tink..n stop accusing mi or insulting mi..i had enuff..lol
i dun understand y tinks turn out tis way...haix..i reali hope tym would go bck..bck to those days we chatted lyk no one is dere or it lyk forver we r stil chattin..luffin so happily..those tyms cantbe revived..

later goin out..so meetin my gf at her hse or clementi.ahhax..lolx..take bus again..my body goin to ache le..lolx..sit soooo long..wil die arx..ahhax..

okie..tts all..tc...i'm off to shoppin..YEA~! hahax..bleahx..xian mu bahx..jealous lorx..ahhax..

2006-09-06T17:53:00.000+08:00

ha..todae woke up in e mornin..n realise tt my bro gone missin..lolx..jk..he went sentosa...n didnt tel mi...sobx..hahax..den no breakfast for mi coz he nt at home..as u noe my mum is bias..without him..no breakfast for mi..coz she wil shun bian buy for mi..or juz left some leftover for mi..i'm so pathetic lahx..lolx..i can go buy myself..but i dun wan..lolx

den gim yong called in e noon..ask mi abt e cd..i tot wat..i'm so surprised fe called my home..n he sae dunno cal whick wan so anihow cal..lolx..okie..hahax..den i cant find e cd..so pai seh worx..hahax..

after tt went to meet my cousin at jp..lolx..i'm so sad lahx..went to e shop..sae dun nid ppl le..so cant manage to hav tt job...sad..sobx..hahax..i lyk tt shop soooo much lorx..lolx..

den went to shop awhile..i lyk precious moments tinks..ahhax..so u all noe wat to buy for my presents horx..lolx..i want tt thermal flask or rather e thermal tink for puttin food..its pink n is nice..i wanna cook food for e wan nxt tym..hehex..sweet rt..n i rmb tt tym i cook for him..n he too brought sth to mi in e mornin..but nt he cook de..i was touched too..coz frm a long journey..lolx.okie lahx..nt so far..its tt tot which counts..hehex..fond memories in my heart..

rmb his bdae i bought a small cake n a cup contain water..lolx..so funni lahx..tt was in e past wen i was naive..lolx..so wil do these tinks..

okie..nxt topic..i went to japan home to buy mirror..standin mirror n can adjust de..coz tt stupid sis keep usin my mirror n dun wanna put bck..wat e..so i mite as well giv her...lolx..i bought one small de for her le..for sch...lolx..

den ate choc ice cream..sooo mice..n saw jia wen in tt ice cream shop..lolx..so funni..glad tt she stil rmb mi..ahhax..okie..i'm lame..its nt lyk a few yrs..hahax..luff out loud..

den went bck home after shoppin..tired lahx..coz nt reali in a mood to shop ..coz no money

den at my hse dere de market..bought a bag..its pink again..lolx..i'm mad..hahax..cousin bought a blue bag..n she bought one bag earlier on..lolx..wat e..she so rich..n she gave mi as a present..thz arx..hahax....oh ya..i saw one cap at jp..its pink..so sweet..but it costs 20 plus..ard 30 le..lolx..so exp lorx..but i wil buy it..ahhax..tt cap he gave mi is too big..i look lyk a retard wearin t..so i dun wanna wear..lolx..

went home n my mum scream..lolx..n she saw e watch i'm wearin i bluff her my fren gave de..lolx..or else i wil die man..lolx..hahax..

n yeah..tml i goin out wif my dearest GF..ahhax..jk lahx..goin town to shop~!
hehex..so happi..ha..n i go" yea yea..*grinnin" lolx..i'm so abnormal now..k..tts all i wil blog..cya..happi readin such a long entry worx..lalala~

2006-09-05T11:36:00.000+08:00

ytd 2 plus den slp..in msn..dae told mi someone in animal planet died..steve irwin..so sad...stung by stingray..den i put a turtle infront of my nick..i wonder issit a joke..coz its lyk luffin at him..by puttin tt..

midnite ard 1 plus went to 7-11..we bought snacks choc..lolx...in e end..she nid to go home..so i went to slp..n ya..we saw a lunatic..he siao lorx..he use his finger dunno point wat..den wen we walk past surely wil c him rt..den he sae c wat c...wat e heck..we didnt even wanna c him...n he lidat sae...stupid fool..he nid to be sent to imh..stay dere permenantly..

after we left..gt one car drive veri fast wen we crossin e road..as if e road is his de..argh~ i'm so suay ytd.

nw wake up...eyes swollen..face pale..look lyk a dead ger..yea..i wish i'm dead..

i'm feelin sick nw i guess..by someone..argh~..u make mi wanna puke..e sight of u in my mind disgusts mi thoroughly..i sld brain washed my brain..

haix..i dun wanna sae animore...tok abt other tinks..

i made sth for hui min..lolx..i bought her a present le..den do sth else more..i design de..lolx..n deres a surprise..ha..dun be too touched wen u saw tt k??? ahhax..jk lahx..but anw hope u wil lyk it..hehex..i used alot of effort to do tt...

lookin forward to thurs...coz she sae she free to go out..n tts mean i can go on a shoppin spree..wee~...hahax..i love shoppin..n one dae we shall go ice skatin..perhaps on my bdae..hehex..

if time could turn bck..deres alot of tinks i dun wan to do..lyk dun wan to be tgt wif someone..dun wan to fall in love wif a guy who dun love mi..hu give mi up over friendship..hu give mi up for e sake of his freedom..hu give mi up for his own selfishness..i wish tt wouldnt happen at all..

i'm hangin on to my faith..my beliefs..

i feel upset n its a painful feeling..i somehow feel hurt..

changed of heart

2006-09-04T13:02:00.000+08:00

someone changed her heart...she lyk another person..tts sad..e love was strong in e first place..until she left for some reasons..wen she came bck..e feelings were nt e same animore..

she fell for someone*..someone* hu touched her heart..but e other someone^ was so sad..he knew sth was wrong..n she lied to him..in e end..dere wun be ani happi endin..coz e somone^ is sad..even if she is tgt wif tt someone*..she noe she wil feels guilty..
i noe she wil choose him in e end..
its hard to explain..

tomorrow..tomorrow...~`~`

=p=P=p..

2006-09-03T14:37:00.000+08:00

hahax...i'm bored..date ppl out ppl nt free..n tt someone forever nt free de..dunno y..hehex...hmmm...so nw i everytym wil sae sometink somewhere someone to him..lolx..bleahx..
ytd ask someone out..he goin out..gt sth on..sms 2 someone n dae nvr reply..wanted to tok to someone in msn..but didnt in e end..n he offline le..haix..so i juz let a opportunity slips away..
someone is goin to play lata..n i'm doin something nw..hahax..watchin sometink nw..so sad..hahax..watch finish some show le..ha..is a happi endin..but tt someone is so noble to giv up e girl he luv to another guy..haix..

sad lorx..hahax..
i wanna go out lahx..to somewhere..lolx..buy something..wif someone for someone..lolx..

is my entry interesting?? lolx..happi figuring out..wats something someone n somewhere..its diff for all.lol..dere r mani someone..but there is oni a special someone..n he noe who he is..lolx..secret..ahhax..

tts for all..tc..lolx..noon~

('',)..('('o^)')..*oink
yea..i'm a piggy..hahax..bleahx..lalala~

2006-09-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

hmmm..tis is e letter i wanted to giv to someone tt tym..but i didnt..hahax..dunno y..juz felt tt is meaningless lorx..dou over le..gei lai gan she me..ahhax..so i found tis letter in my drawer..heex..
actually is a poem lahx..i guess so..nt sure too..2 yrs le..lolx..but i'm nt tellin u all hu e person is..but den definitely nt him lahx..

the pale moonlight is glowing..
i wiped my tears as i see you moving into a bright world so far away living mi stranded in a place where there's no day..you were a man who had fought for my honour a hero whom i've been waiting for..
but now and forever,i know you'll never be here anymore
i woke up in the morning hoping to find my someone who had brightened my life but all i see is just a reflection of me looking so faithless ,lost under the surface i thought of what i used to be
a girl who thinks that life was a dream
confusions soon took over me
leaving me trapped in a room with no key
deep down inside
i feel like i'm dying
seeing you leave is worse than poisoning
you left me felt the puriest of pain
and i wished you knew things can never be changed
all day
hearing voices in my head
thinking life is never fair
you knew that i'll be unwell but you never seems to care right now
hoping someday you'll come again
with a bright smile on your face
i wish you well as i slip away
following the shadows till the end of my way
somehow we had ended now
nothing can changed
knowing tomorrow will be a better day
if tomorrows never comes
forgetting mi not..remember my face..

memorable dae -/-/--

2006-09-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

zui ai ni de ren shi wo..ni zhe me she de wo nan guo..zai wo zui xu yao ni de shi hou mei you shuo yi ju hua jiu zou..

but in end u stil hurt mi..i guess tis is e fate i hav..hav to face it den..

Even when no one is by my side
I do not feel lonely at all
Love and this world
they are in my dream
Because i am waiting for you
that is why i could endure with you in my heart
we shall meet in a world where there is no separation
at the same time
sharing the same memory
we can share it now
wishing that happiness is waiting for us in the near future
the day u come to me
i'll shed those hidden tears
i hope to share with you
only Love...

this love is not something you can smile at and say goodbye~

2006-08-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

sat:went out

went to bugis n sim lim square..alight frm bugis n walk a distance to sl square..lolx..we walk past burlington n e bencoolen..den walk past sil lim le my sis stil wanna walk further..so stupid..lolx..i ask her she wanna go e office dere n ask for e stock issit..lolx..hahax..

went inside..alot of shops..went to gab dad shop first..but den nth inside..lolx..so walk again..so long..my leg so pain..sldnt hav wear heels..hahax..den horx..alot of cute guys lorx..every shop i went in..deres a cute guy for sure..hahax..bleahx..nxt tym i sld work dere...lolx..aniwax..i lookin for a job le..maybe in a boutique lorx...lolx..

after tt went to bugis n eat..eat japanese food..so full..hahax..den shop awhile..den i bought a watch..n a converse shirt..so nice..heex.. hide it wen i reach home..hahax..cnt let her c..lata wil scream..hahax..

reach home den 12 plus go out again..but den no moon n no stars..waster of tym lahx..i was so tired lorx..hahax..den go bathe..2 plus den slp..yawns~

sun:at home

woke up ard 11 plus..so tired..den wake up eat breakfast..after tt went to my neighbour hse..she wanna c my bks..coz she teachin tuition..hahax..den stay dere until 4 plus..so late...hahax..den reach home i go slp le..wake up ard 7 plus..lolx..slp until so soundly..but veri cold..hahax..stupid weather..

want to buy some strings to knit..lolx..nth to do mahx..

k lahx..write until here..watchin tv..hahax..

2006-08-26T01:57:00.000+08:00

I've got sabotaged by gab to answer all this.. lol..

1. full name: Lim soo chin (kitty)
2. name backwards: (yttik) nihc oos mil
3. were you named after someone: nahx
4. meaning of name: dunno
5. nickname: kitty..pinky girl
6. screen name: time wil heal all wounds
7. D.O.B: 30th oct 1989
8. place of birth: jurong hospital...nt dere animore
9. nationality: singaporean
10. current location: living rm, infront of my window
11. star sign: scorpio
12. religion: buddhist..but i'm a free tinker
13. height: 147cm
14. weight:40 bahx..coz i slim down le..
15. shoe size: 4 or 5
16. hair colour: brown with black (cuz hair growing)
17. eye colour: black
18. who do you look like: mum
19. innie or outtie: both..depends on mood
20. leftie or rightie: left handed
21. gay, straight, bi or others: im very straight
22. best friends: hui min
23. best friend you trust most: hui min
24. favourite pals: hui min..gab..wen ya...janice
25. best friend of opposite sex: someone
26. best buddies: nt sure
27. boyfriend or girlfriend: no more
28. crush: no crush. gt..someone
29. parents:normal
30. worst enemy:
31. favourite online guy: someone
32. favourite online girl: hui min
33. craziest friend:gab
34. advice friend: hui mi
35. loudest friend: nt sure
36. person you cry with: depends
37. any sisters: ya
38. any brothers: ya
39. any pets: hamsters
40. any disease: no disease
41. pagers:no
42. personal phone line: nope..
43. cell phone: LG fone 282
44. lava lamp: dun hav
45. pool or hot tub: nahx
46. a car:nahx
47. your personality: hyperactive..freiendly
48. driving: no
49. room: alot of hello kitty
50. whats missing: nt sure
51. school: kitty sch
52. bed colour: pink colour
53. relationship with parents:fine
54. believe in yourself: sometyms
55. believe in love at first sight: yea
56. good listener: hopefully
57. get along well with parents: sometimes
58. save email conversations: yes.
59. pray: no
60. believe in reincarnation: yes.
61. make fun of people: ya.
62. like to talk on the phone: yes
63. want to get married:yup
64. like to drive: dunno
65. motion sickness: car sick..wen i face e bck..i wil vomit
66. eat stem of broccoli: no
67. eat chicken with fork: yes.
68. dream in colour:nt sure
69. type with your fingers on home role: tink so
70. sleep with stuff animals: ya..my dolphin
71. next to you: hp
72. on the walls of your room: hello kitty pics.. stars..moon..hearts
73. on your mousepad: dunno
74. dream car: lite pink car
75. dream date: someone hu wun break my heart
76. dream honeymoon spot: paris
77. dream husband or wife: someone
78. bedtime: 2-3 plus
79. under your bed: nth..wen my hp drop den deres hp..
80. single most important question: dunno
81. bad time of a day: cryin at nite
82. your worst fear: knowin e truth
83. the weather is: dark. its night time now.
84. time: 2:06am
85. date: 25nd august 2006
86. best trick did on someone: i forget liao.
87. theme song: i dun have leh.
88. hardest thing about growing up: noe e truth
89. funniest experience: dunno
90. scariest experience: having night mares.
91. silliest thing you have ever said: e words to him..
93. scariest thing while you are with your friends: get lost
94. worst feeling: heartbroken
95. best feeling in the world: wen he hugs mi
96. AND NOW THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!! CHOOSE EIGHT TO DO THE QUIZ!!!
1.hui min
2.tt someone
3.tt guy
4.kenneth
5.jia wei
6.alan
7.wen ya
8.('',)

2006-08-25T15:18:00.000+08:00

haax..i watch finish goong le..princess hours..sooo nice..hehex..stil gt season 2 so i'm waitin for it..hahax..ytd 4 plus den slp..
woah ..can tahan so long..hahax..
lata goin out..hahax..so happi..
my oral over le..i tink i did well for it..hehex.. but i oni ger..haix..so pai sehx..n deres ard 20 plus guys.i was lyk wat the..lolx.. but alot of cute guys lahx..hahax..
wake up ard 12.. den chat in msn..ha...
haven eat breakfast..lata eat dinner..lolx..tinkin of wae to go..so sianx..lolx..

chat wif gera ytd..lolx..we tok quite alot..hahax..its nice chattin wif her again..heex..

nw listenin to song..ha..
saw a top ytd..its nice.wanted to buy bt no money..i'm goin to buy in a few days tym..hahax..

okie..tts all..wil update more nxt tym..

2006-08-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

went to slp ard 3 plus ytd m i woke up ard 9 in e mornin..ami crazy?? lolx..was watchin korean drama lahx..den keep on watchin..nw jus watch finish..so dere was a happi endin=p.. it was nice..heex..
woke up so early coz my bck hurts..i dunno y..maybe nt slpin well..my slpin posture is weird..i can change alot..lolx..den frm e head can bcum e toes..lolx..so funni..hahax..
no breakfast for mi..i'm starvin..n tt pig is eatin wif her..n he told mi tt he dun tink he wil be meetin her..boo~ i was jus tinkin too much lahx..hahax..i was a nobody..lolx..
listenin to songs nw..so sianx.i wanna go out..lolx..tml havin oral..wish mi gd luck..lolx..i oni wanna hear frm U.. haix..
wen watchin tt drama..i tink alot..so i cried..haix..it was lyk e same..nt tt happi endin..but those sad tinks..lolx..kkx..shall nt elaborate.. i realise alot of tinks..i sld put it down..nt holdin on..or cling to a shadow or a photo..its no use..

heex

2006-08-19T14:40:00.000+08:00

ha..i dyed my hair le..copper brown..nt so obvious..lolx..my hair cant absorb colour lahx..hahax..lolx..was busy ytd..lolx..coz i went out alot of tyms lorx..afternoon went to eat wif my cousin..den evening acc her go buy dinner..den at nite go out wif my parents..lolx.. n guess wat..i bought a new fone..hahax..LG fone..bleahx..n its pink..lolx..G282..hahax..quite long le lahx..so its quite cheap lorx..lolx..nt i pay mahx..hahax.. so happi..actually wanted to buy a samsung fone..but den no pink de le..lolx..so i dun wan..den no more stock le..haix..hahax..aniwax tt wan nt friendly user lahx..so mine is betta..lolx..hahax..gt mp3..lolx..
midnite go n eat supper wif my sis lorx..cant eat finish although i'm so hungry..dunno y..hahax..maybe to spicy le..lolx..after eatin feel lyk vomitin lahx..lolx..den go home play com lorx..some pig nvr reply mi.n online so long..coz he fall asleep..lolx..wat a pig..i purposely go tempt him sae i wanna go eat..lolx..so funni..hahax..den chatted awhile den go slp le..
woke up tt tym feel lyk vomitin again..i dunno y lehx..den i go rest awhile..more worst..lolx..feel lyk faintin..ahhax..okie..i so weird..lolx.. tis feel days feel lyk vomitin..my gastric gt prob..lolx..but i gt eat wat..dunno lahx..hahax.. maybe coz at nite too late eat le..haix..hahax..
den i go dl my songs to my fone lorx..upload image to e com..hahax..i'm so zhi lian lahx..lolx..n here i am bloggin..lolx..nth to do../cant go out..no money..lolx..n my dad at home nw..wat the..hahax.. nvm..its tym for mi to rest..hahax.. been goin out nearly everydae lorx..lolx..
i have been changin myslef lahx..changin to a new mi..for my own sake..lolx..n livin a new life..lolx..so i tink i'm betta on my own..bleahx~..lolx..

2006-08-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

Don't cry in life
As the person that u shed tears for, dun deserve ur tears...
If that person really deserves those tears then he/she will never make you cry...

2006-08-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

todae wnt out wif wee hong n chee how..n two of their frenx..go sp..lolx.. it tot spore idol at sp..so dae r meetin dem dere..coz wilber was dere juz nw..lolx..n we saw jm n wm..lolx..so funni..so we took a cab nw to toapayoh dere..mediacorp..to watch lorx..gt tickets..lolx..den e theatre was lyk so small lorx..den no photography allowed.but i stil take one..lolx..we sit on e stairs oso cnt..i was lyk wat e..lolx..stupid lorx..den normal lahx..oni wilber was worth watchin..lolx..coz i dun lyk spore idol..lolx..
after tt dae go eat..n i watch dem eat..so poor tink..coz no money..lolx..bought a hello kitty key chain..rmb tt tym i gave him one..haix..it was a pair den..but nw..haix..
we took mrt home..den take 335..so long..was holdin bck my tears in e bus lahx..but in e end i stil cried..i dunno y..hahax..weird..reach home kena scolded..confirm de..lolx..den eat dinner..was home ard 11 plus..so late..den on com..lolx..
juz bathed..so freezing cold lahx..hahax..i off e fan..okie nw..my hair was so easy to dry..hahax..
aniwax..wm saw those marks on my hand..haix.. he sae wats nt mine wun be mine in e end..wats mine wil return bck to mi..tts true..i cant believe i told him tt b4..haix..i said if u love mi set mi free..if i return i was meant to be yours..haix..so nw is his turn to sae tt to mi..i wonder whether is he foolin my feelings..coz i dun feel tt he love mi as much as last tym..dunno lahx..he juz dun giv ani effort in tis relationship..so i dunno y..juz make it tt i met e wrong guy n fall in luv at e wrong tym bahx..i wil get over it..as fast den u could..

=p

2006-08-17T09:39:00.000+08:00

ha..ytd went out..wif janice..lolx.i went to ps hse first..to take book..lolx..n her hamster bite mi..it bleeds..lolx..so pain lorx..so fierce sia tt hammie..lolx..same breed as mine de..lolx..after tt she send mi to e bus stop..lolx..den i go take mrt to je meet janice.i was late..hahax..sorrie arx.
we went to bugis lorx..lolx..bought alot of tinks..a halter neck top..a ribbon hairband..e eyelasher de..nail polish..nail filer..mini skirt..nail arts..batteries..lolx..do manicure..drinks..lunch..omg..i spend so much money..woah~ lolx..broke le lahx..
we shop shop until leg pain..hahax...tok alot lahx..lolx..i entertain her..i do most of e tokin..lolx..go bck home tt tym..ard 10 plus le..we 2 plus come out..hahax..lolx..so long sehx..tt manicure lahx..so long..we wait 1 hr plus for our turn...den i make so long..den wait for janice make oso..den tyms flies..lolx..ahahax..
here r sum of e pics we took..

2006-08-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

in e middle of e nite n here i'm bloggin..lolx..cant slp..
hurt myself again..fall down wen walkin..i so dumb..lolx..wat am i doin.i oso dunno..ahhax..den nw knock onto e chair..so pain lorx..another blue black..lolx..feel poor tink for mi..
dad comin home ard 4 plus..so late..n he ask mi to do sth..ask mi to wake up wen i asleep..lolx..c i can wake up anotx..lolx..my life so pathetic..ahhax..kkx..stop sayin pathetic tis word or else ms tang wil sae again..lolx..
listenin to songs nw..okie..tts wat i do i e nite..ahhax..lolx..my bck hurts lahx..my bro lahx..go n make mi..i sae i pain liao..stil hit wif his hand..omg..is so pain lorx..i scream..lolx.. mum cook supper for us..lolx..n sum leftover food coz daddy nt cumin home to eat..ahhax..
watch 10 pm show..chn u..n i heard sum words again..lolx..i'm oways lookin for sum meaningful words..dunno y..ahhax..sum tinks cant be forgotten no matter how hard u tired..it wil etch in ya heart deeply.. ahhax..sum tinks cnt be replace by new one..n u cant change e facts wen u noe e truth..
wen u tink u cant giv e otherwan happiness..u gotta let him/her go.. coz it wun bring u to a happi endin..u cant substitute sum1 in ya heart to be wif sum1 else..it wil hurt e other party..
feel lyk crying out loud..its been long since i last do tt..coz i oways cried silently..or else i wil be sobbin so badly tt i could shiver..n hiccups..lolx..last cried so badly was in last yr..ahhax..dun reali rmb y lahx..but i noe is sum ppl lahx..ahhax..n he was dere wif mi..he felt lyk cryin too wen he saw mi lyk tt..ahhax..nvr saw him cried but heard him cried..lolx.on e fone..shall nt tel u all wats e reason..ahhax..bleahx..
of coz he saw mi cry alot of tyms..countless..lolx..n most of it is he make mi cry de..hahax..but tis yr no..oni a few tyms.. lolx..weird rt..haix..so i sld get over it.. kitty u can do it de..ahhax..

2006-08-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

mi at kbox long tym ago..cck..

2006-08-15T18:35:00.000+08:00

爱过你　失去你我才知道要珍惜

2006-08-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

yawns..juz wake up nt long ago...ard 12 plus..lolx..i was so tired lahx..lolx..slp so late..wake up early le lorx..hahax..nth for mi to eat..so hungry..nobody wil care whether i gt eat anot le..havin flu nw..u wun care animore..haix..change ya hotmail password le rt...if u saw my nick..
wanna go out lahx..dun wanna stay at home..maybe meetin ps tml..goin out on fri..lolx..i wanna buy clothes although i nw alot of clothes le..lolx..stil nid more..its nvr enuf..wahahax..
currently listenin to tong en de song..nice nice..hahax..lolx.. on it so loud to drown my voice..hide my tears..silently..
y am i so vunerable nw? i dunno y.. cried even if its a slightest tink..siao liaox..hahax..tears juz drop lahx..i'm so weak.yea..
watch tv ytd n heard alot of words..ha..i realise u r nt e one i truly love..e promises u make are broken i dun believe in promises animore..dun make mi ani promise wen u tink u can fulfil it..coz i t wil break my heart even more wen i hold on to e promise..haix..tt sum1 oso..dun even noe how i feel... y r u so dumb..u said it yaself oso horx..hahax..be more attentive to wat i hav said..okie ? u wil find more meanin to it de..hahax..profound rt? wahahhax..bleahx.. wen i sae jk i dun reali mean it..juz dun put jk to e words n u wil noe wat i mean..lolx.. understand..

aniwax hope to c u soon..so long nvr meet le..hahax..e chance juz went away tt tym..haix..so sad..hahax..

2006-08-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

juz nw went out wif gab n wenya..acc dem go eat..i go drink oni..hahax..had a fun tym chattin wif dem..n found out alot of tinks..lolx..gab was surprise by alot of tinks..lolx..dun be so zhi bei..hehex..u wil find one soon..=p..
after we eat..den we walk abit..she wanna buy ear piece..n wenya bought sum medicine for her mum..is lyk medicated oil lahx.hahax..n i bought a pink watch..so tt ican replace e old one..nt tt i lost it or wat..juz dun wanna wear tt watch again..haix..
after buyin den go home le..crossin e road tt tym..nearly get knock over..nvr c e car comin..i was juz so distracted lahx..dunno y..coz maybe i saw him juz nw..i'm nt sure..coz i saw sum hks de..nvm.. i couldnt even recognize..so it doesnt matter..
went home n cried over nth..lolx..okie..i'm so weird.. hahax..dunno y lahx..

you took my heart away~

2006-08-14T16:11:00.000+08:00

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hope or dream
Try to dull an inner scream
But you . . . saw me through . . .

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now I?m in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it?s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .

Living in a world so cold
You were there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now . . . I ?m in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it?s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .

Holding your hands
I won?t fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We never be alone

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it?s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life . . .

2006-08-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

tts abt all my pics i took..=pPp..

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2006-08-14T12:10:00.000+08:00

hahax..i wake up so early..ytd so late den slp..coz too happi le so cant slp..hyperactive..lolx..hahax..mum was jealous of my necklace n anklet..lolx..but she oso gt mahx..my dad bought her e necklace n bracelet..lolx..so sweet rt..rose de..how sweet can my dad be..lolx..hehex..
he buy alot of tinks lahx..lolx..

nw listening to songs..tong en de..i tink its nice..shes a new singer..hahax..e lyrics veri meaningful..=p..so i copy n paste den save..lolx..i dunno y tt tym i go n write him e letters..wen he dun even care..coz he didnt reply mi..haix.i was so dumb lahx..tts mi..noe tt tinks wun be e same again..but i stil tried..coz i wun give up so easily de..unless i'm being hurt deeply..n ya..i had been hurt so deep tt i cant get up myslef..haix..y did u hav to sae tinks to hurt mi..u sae u dun make sae tinks u dun wanna sae..but in e end u stil said it..rmb ? haix..maybe dere r stil sum hurtin words left..rt ? so u mite as well sae it all..n end it..make a stop to it..i didnt noe i could love u so much..n our love is so deep..juz didnt noe tt wen i'm wif u..so i didnt treasure u..i took u for granted..so i lose u..my fault..yes..my fault.. i'm self centred..so r u..dun deny..haix.. tis was my longest relationship..but none of it lasted..wat a failure i am..sobx.. muz wait til i grow older..n wil be able to look at tinks differently..n be more mature..able to tinks ways nicely..n nt juz excuses to break up..so i wil try..i reali hope u could console be a little..juz a little..n care for mi abit..as a fren oso can..but u juz cant..cant u even face mi? or tok to mi ? y r u stil actin nonchalant abt it? i dunno y..coz u left mi wif e qns y..haix..leaving mi in all tis mess...clearing up myself..
haix..i juz wish..plain wish..i dun hope much..

=)

2006-08-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

heex..daddy is bck home le..miss him..ha..he bought mi a necklace..an anklet..a pair of earrings n a key chain..its sooo nice..i love it so much..thx dad!..hehex..so gd..i hav so mani tinks nw..i dun hav to buy..hahax..lalala~ juz so happi..hehex...
anwax juz cut my hair..dae sae its nice..i tink so too..bleahx..lolx.hehex..todae my sis bdae..n she had a party..so i decorated e hse..make until so nice..touch anot? lolx..i make alot of effort lorx..hehex..den draw draw draw..paste n paste..lolx..blow balloon..n it hurts..coz it burst..ahhh..pain lorx..hahax..go downstairs to collect e cake n bought sum party tinks..lolx..e party was perfect..lolx..although nt mani came..but it was fun..coz my cousin n aunt came too=)
e cake we finish le..1 kg lehx..hahax..she open her present n she like it alot..lolx..i didnt buy..buy i do all those tinks enuff le horx?lolx..nxt tym den buy for u lahx..hahax..
todae was busy e whole dae..didnt hav tym to rest..was so tired lorx..ha..but its worth it..hehex..
my leg pain lorx..gt blue black..todae den i c it..lolx..so pain..den swollen..omg..hahax..i so ke lian lidat..lolx..
nw midnite le..another dae le..i felt so happi..hahax..my fren sld be glad rt? especially my ms tang..hahax..=pPp..
hmmm...juz blog to sae wat happen todae..hahax..i'm happi over e moon..lolx..
gd nite..~('('o^)')..('',)..

2006-08-13T11:23:00.000+08:00

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bengali - Ami tomake bhalobashi (pronounced: Amee toe-ma-kee bhalo-bashee)
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cherokee - Tsi ge yu i (Thanks Nancy!)
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Elvish - Amin mela lle (from The Lord of The Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien)
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe
Hebrew (Thanks Lilach)
Hebrew to male: "ani ohev otcha" (said by male) "Ohevet ot'cha" (said by female)
Hebrew to female: "ani ohev otach" (said by male) "ohevet Otach" (said by female)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek(Thanks Dóra!)
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Luxembourgeois - Ech hun dech gäer
Macedonian - Te Sakam
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Maltese - Inhobbok
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

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2006-08-13T02:05:00.000+08:00

woah~ its so late in e nite n i'm stil awake..lolx..goin to be a nite owl le lahx..all thx to dem..lolx..jk..hahax..nw stil listening to songs..n surfin e net to find lyrics..lolx.. so i found sum meaningful lyrics..heex..

Give me time to realize my crime
Let me love and steal
I have danced inside your eyes
How can I be real

Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry
Precious kisses, words that burn me
Lovers never ask you why

In my heart the fire's burning
Choose my color, find a star
Precious people always tell me
That's a step, a step too far

CHORUS:
Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry
Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry

Words are few I have spoken
I could waste a thousand years
Wrapped in sorrow words are token
Come inside and catch my tears
You've been talking but believe me
If its true you do not know
This boy loves without a reason
I'm prepared to let you go

If it's love you want from me
Then take it away
Everything is not what you see
It's over today

Do u reali want to hurt mi?

From e bottom of my heart.. i reali wan u to noe..
how am i supposed to live..haix..
just let mi cry..

mOOd: gd

2006-08-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

ha..felt lyk i hav let a burden off my chest..felt so relieve nw..phew..hahax..lolx..nvr go out todae..was so tired lorx..wake up ard 12..den i n e afternon.slp again.okie..i'm a pig..hahax...lolx..so tired..i slept ard 2 hrs..hahax..den leg so pain..ha..wake up feel lyk vomitin..tink coz i nvr eat anitink bahx..den giddy giddy de..hhax..rest awhile den feel betta le..heex..
nvr do anitink much todae..n i was so stupid to msg him again..knew tt he wun reply.but i tried..ha..even if u msg mi nw..tt tink aredy ended le lahx..haiyo..hahax..nxt tym muz put a sound alarm in ya hp..den u can hear..n strong vibration for u to feel..lolx..bleah~ so no more excuses for u to sae..hehex..
hmmmm..tml my sis bdae le..dunno wat to buy..but i order e cake for her le..lolx..gd rt..but nt i pay lahx..wahahax..gt tt tot enuff le mahx..lolx..nt lyk mi..fated to spend my bdae alone..tot tt i wun be alone again..but it stil e same..i was to naive to tink so much..all those fairytales stories wun even appear in my life..haix..so sad..was holdin on though..but den aredy ended..so i wun tink animore..=p..juz live my life again on my own..independence..kitty is gettin stronger already..hehex..=) i hav been able to slp in e nite without tossing ard..hahax..wif frenx to acc mi all e while..i guess i'm fine le..ha..recovering frm all my stupid acts..lolx..come to tink of it..it isnt worth lorx..lolx..for a @#$%*& !!! hahax..k lahx..nth to write le..endin here..nitex.('('o^)')..('',)..*winKx

2006-08-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

at espande..e bridge.

outside esplanade..taken wif a ball..hahax.i went down e water..=p

e nite~

2006-08-12T12:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm..ytd went to watch firework..ha..meet dem ard 530 at je..den play arcade lorx..hahax..after tt go buy champagne..lolx.buy two botttles..n plastic cups to drink..lolx..den dae go eat n we wait for kenneth n his gf to come..hhax.so long..stil bluff us oni few stops..lolx..den headed to city hall..lolx..so queezy..reach dere le..so mani ppl..ahhax..den walk walk walk to esplanade..lolx..so tired..hahax..reach dere le stil early den go inside aircon rest..lolx..after tt hui min came n we go watch first..hahax..we get in but dae outside..hahax..we gt a nice view..veri spectacular..woah~ hahax..e firework so nice..but its oni a moment..e dazzle of fireworks juz vanish so fast..hahax..too bad tt sum1 nt here..heex..
after tt open champagne..lolx..i pop out e tink..den splash out..hahax..so funni..alot of ppl watchin..den share e drink lorx..quite nice.but veri cheap oni.lolx..wahhahax..after tt go to eat..walk a long way..hahax..so tired liao..i eat dessert..den eat satay..hahax..dae go buy poker cards to play..eat liaox walk bck esplanade n play..lolx..quite dark lahx..but stil can c..i didnt play..lolx..was listenin to my mp3..n msgin sum1 hu wun reply..lolx..den goin to fall asleep le..so i lie on johnson bck to slp..lolx..so nice..ahhax..shortly after tt hui min wanna go home le..acc her go take cab..ha..we play awile more oso go off le..lolx..den e bus stop gt nr 5 but den towards marina..hahax..so we go opp..den nid to climb tt dumb tink..n my leg hurts..if oni one of u carry mi over..i wun be feelin so pain nw..lolx..ahhax..jk lahx..but i stil manage to climb over..wahhahax..we found out tt its e wrong bus stop again..dun hav e bus..den we walk to clarke quey..pro rite..lolx..so far n we walk so fast..lolx..so funni lorx..climb bck again to another route..lolx..tt was bette..nt so pain..but tt tink taller..hahax..but can lahx./.heex..we waited for ard 30mins or more for tt bus to come...so damn long lorx..hahax..finally gt seats to sit..lolx..i sat wif jianming..hahax..den we wanna slp..he set alarm..ha..i lie on his shoulder to slp..slp until so nice tt we didnt even notice gim yong n yeow ching got off e bus le..lolx..hahax..in e end i wake up den wake jm up..juz excactly e alarm tym..lolx..den i gt off lorx..wif wee hong..he go another way..ha..wen i walkin.saw a cat eatin up sth..so gross lorx..eeee..hahax..den i walk faster coz i scared..its so late in e nite..hahax..den e life de sound so loud..scare mi so bad..lolx..den i reach home no keys to open den called my sis..she off her fone..wat e..called bro..veri long dne he called bck..tot i hav to slp outside..hahax..den i go bath lorx..lolx..after tt go slp le..wahahax..so tired..leg pain muscle ache..lolx..i slept so soundly..in e end oso gt nitemare..boo~ i so scared lorx..hahax..saw sum1 killing a person..gt alot of ppl saw it..i dunno is hu lahx..but i tink i dunno dem..hahax..lyk japanese..coz e uni look lyk one..all e girls all jap de..lolx..so wae ami i in e dream ? lolx..tts a qns n my puzzle..hahahax..i noe its in a movie theatre..lyk toilet or wat lahx..hahax..oso gt water splash out..police came...lolx..my dream excitin rite..wahaha..lolx..so funni..n in e end i wake up le..haha..so no endin..i noe i didnt die..wahahax..bleah~..wake up nw but haven eat anitink..so hungry..hahax..wah~ such a long blog..lolx..hahax..enjoy readin..=)..heex..take care everyone..ha..byez~ ('('o^)')..('',)..

2006-08-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

Survived the lies,

survived the blues,

Almost killed me but I survived the truth.

2006-08-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

You are no longer respected

You are formally rejected

From the one you hurt

yuan lai

2006-08-11T13:42:00.000+08:00

街灯绊住我眼前
下一步
拉长的影子
嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡
原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹
说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

hold mi

2006-08-11T13:35:00.000+08:00

Hey
If we can´t find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don´t need this
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defenses
And secret hiding places

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it´s alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I´m finding it hard to be your man

Hey
More than angry words I hate this silence
It´s getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It´s getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn´t happiness
Worth more than a gold diamond ring?
I´m willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I´ve never been the praying kind
But lately I´ve been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it´s alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I´m finding it hard to be your man

Do you remember not long ago?
When we used to live for the nighttime
Cherish each moment
Now we don´t live we exist
We just run through our lives
So alone
That´s why you´ve got to hold me

Hey
If we can´t find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don´t need this
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defenses
And secret hiding places

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it´s alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I´m finding it hard to be your man

i knew i loved you

2006-08-11T13:34:00.001+08:00

Maybe it´s intuition
But some things you just don´t question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I´ve found my best friends
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There´s just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I´m searching for
I think I´ve found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I´ve found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

i dun noe u anymore

2006-08-11T13:34:00.000+08:00

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn´t have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don´t matter
I´ll be courageous if you can pretend you´ve forgiven me

Because I don´t know you anymore
I don´t recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don´t talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn´t give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I´ve paid the price
I´m still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn´t have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn´t really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don´t know you anymore
I don´t recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don´t talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn´t give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face

tears of pearls

2006-08-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

And we stare each other down like victims in the grind
Probing all the weakness and hurt still left behind and we cry
The tears of pearls
We do it. Oh we do it.

Is love really the tragedy the way you might describe?
Or would a thousand lovers still leave you cold inside?
Make you cry...
These tears of pearls

All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls
Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world

Your kisses are like pearls， so different and so rare
But anger stole the jewels away and love has left you bare，
Made you cry...
These tears of pearls

Well I could be the tired joker pour my heart to get you in
Sacrifice my happiness just so I could win
Maybe cry...
These tears of pearls

All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls
Stolen pearls devotions we keep locked away from all the world

We twist and turn where angles burn
Like fallen soilders we will learn
That once forgotten， twice removed
Love will be the death...
The death of you

All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls
Stolen pearls devotions we keep locked away from all the world

promises

2006-08-11T13:32:00.001+08:00

Well don´t you know I need a little indulgence?
Listen to the hunter becoming hunted
Every day there´s a million advances
Don´t be too forceful， you´ll ruin your chances
Well don´t you know that time is a broken glass
That splinters against the wall?
But the picture is coming back now baby，
And I want to take it all

Don´t go making all these promises you know you cannot keep
There´s a time to play a king and a time to be the thief
´Cause if you´re making all these promises you know you cannot keep
You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone

So let you´re body move a little bit closer
Silent like the sound proceeding a cyclone
Don´t you know that powerful thinking
Can be a force you don´t want to relinquish?
Well don´t you know that，
They say that hanging on will justify the wait?
But patience and elated wisdom don´t share a common phrase

Don´t go making all these promises you know you cannot keep
There´s a time to play a king and a time to be the thief
´Cause if you´re making all these promises you know you cannot keep
You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone

Well， I´m only hanging on for what goes down
I´m floating high and my feet don´t touch the ground
I´d take advantage but I can´t see through this charade
So don´t you， don´t go make it harder than hell
´Cause when it comes down to the making
You better be damned sure you can take it
Hey baby

Well dont go making all these promises you know you cannot keep
There´s a time to play a king and a time to be a thief
´Cause if your making all these promises you know you cannot keep
You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone

Time will be the thief
and your fallen king will end up...
A fool， a fool， a lonely sorry fool
Oh baby， ´cause I told you baby

truly madly deeply

2006-08-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

I´ll be your dream
I´ll be your wish I´ll be your fantasy
I´ll be your hope I´ll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I´ll love you more with every breath
Truly， madly， deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
´cause I´m counting on

A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky，
I´ll make a wish to send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we´re surrounded by the comfort and protection of

The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can´t you see it baby?
You don´t have to close your eyes
´Cause it´s standing right here before you
All that you need will surely come

I´ll be your dream I´ll be your wish
I´ll be your fantasy
I´ll be your hope I´ll be your love
Be everything that you need
I´ll love you more with every breath
Truly， madly， deeply do

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

reason

2006-08-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

Don’t turn away from me!
Look into my eyes
All the world is white
Have you forgotten the promise you made?

Why have you given up on me?
You did that so easily
But to me it was so difficult

From the beginning
We had a love that shouldn’t have been started
My tears are mixed with pleading
That I can't put more of myself into you

You mustn't disappear from my life
Know that you are my light
If you leave, you take away my whole world
Don’t forget that it will all disappear
I want to breathe
From in your love...

I smile whenever I think of you
It becomes so hard on me
I cry whenever I think of you
I’m scared of everything

unfaithful~

2006-08-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

[Verse 1:]
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rollin' in
Because I'm goin' again
and to him I just can't be true

[Bridge:]
And I know that he knows im unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I'm happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

[Verse 2:]
I feel it in the air
As i'm doin my hair
Preparing for another day
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if i'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hangin' with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

[Bridge:]
Cause I know that he knows im unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that i am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

Our love... his trust
I might as well take a gun
And put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this... anymore

Oooohhh... anymore

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

...a murderer
No no no
yeah yeah